hapPy New yeAR tO alL Of yoU!!! =]

aLl tHe bEsT!!!

武术高手翁清海再接再厉，在昨晚的男子刀术项目中，夺得他的第二枚金牌。　　
他已在前天的比赛中，率先赢得长拳金牌。　　翁清海是去年的世界赛冠军，早有世界刀王的称号，昨天再度封王，证实名不虚传。赛后，翁清海兴奋的说，这两枚金牌，是他提前送给自己的生日礼物。　　
他说：“我将在12月6日庆祝22岁生日。我提前一个半月拿到最佳生日礼物。”刚在不久前与新视签约、成为全职演员的翁清海说，他在签约后就接到拍片任务，在上海逗留了三个月，因此，真正参加武术集训，只有两个月时间。　　
他说：“今年真的很忙，时间好像过得很快，没有机会休息。”虽然如此，他说，他仍然对自己充满信心，有把握夺取双料冠军。　　
他说：“整体来说，我对自己的临场发挥感到满意。”　　
翁清海曾经在1993年东运会上，第一次夺得长拳金牌及剑术和棍术两枚银牌。　　由于本届东运会限制每名选手只能参加两项，因此，翁清海无法寻求更多的夺标机会。问他为什么这次会选择长拳和刀术，翁清海幽默的说：“因为这两项最先举行。早一点比完，我就能够早一点轻松一下。”小学毕业后，你是不是偶尔经过学校，却一直提不起勇气走进去呢？　　翁清海说：“老师都离开了，找不到借口回学校啊！"　这期，《艺人回母校》为清海制造了“借口”，让他名正言顺重返母校——裕华小学（Yu Hua Pri）。　　
回到母校，清海也“返老还童”，处处流露童心。见到一群小男生尾随着我们，他忍不住躲在墙后，然后出其不意跳出来，把他们吓得拊住胸口大叫。奸技得逞，他得意地哈哈笑。　　“读小学真好，每天嘻嘻哈哈，要我重读一次我也无所谓。”　　
俗话说，小时了了，大未必佳；清海不但小时了了，大了更不得了。他在念小学时，就已经展露明星的架势。 　　
“我小时候很好动，什么运动都参加，我的强项是短跑、跳高，我是学校运动会的明星。”哗，口气好不谦虚！“我小学赢得的奖杯、奖牌，现在都还收着呢！”　　清海说，他小时候个子小，老师挑选他参加跳高比赛时，根本没抱太大希望。谁知，他一跳就跳出第一名，连老师都难以置信地捏住他的脸颊不放——疼爱有加啦！　　
小五那年，清海在跑道上的爆发力，被独具慧眼的“师兄”相中，拉他加入醒狮团。在团里，他掌握了武术的基本功，为他日后在武坛绽放异彩，打下稳固的基础。“我没想过要放弃比赛！”翁清海斩钉截铁地说。　　
自从四年前参加“才华横溢出新秀”，进入演艺圈后，清海便淡出体坛。曾在武术场上驰骋，夺过世界武术冠军的“刀神”，难道已决定弃武从影？　　“很多人把我的工作和兴趣混淆了。”语气里难掩无奈，“演戏是我的工作，武术是我的兴趣，因为工作占去我大部分的时间，所以我不是没时间训练，就是错过比赛。”　清海吐露心中的矛盾：“以前我只要参加比赛，就有奖牌到手，所以大家都认为我夺标是应该的。不过要出赛，一定要有充足的训练，否则失败了，对不起自己事小，对不起国家事大！”　　
97年被“才华”发掘后，清海接拍了第一部戏《铁血男儿》，就当男主角。当时，还处于比赛状态的他，一方面要适应演员的工作，另一方面还得为东运会备战。“我心里很焦急，觉得时间不够用，我是代表国家，我有责任拿出最好的成绩。”待剧集杀青后，清海只剩下两个月接受全职训练。皇天不负苦心人，他在赛场上，发挥最佳表现，夺下长拳和刀的两面金牌。　　清海说，他曾经埋怨师兄们下班后来练武，个个倦容满面，提不起劲，现在自己到社会上工作，他才明白他们的力不从心。“偏偏我的休息时间，总是碰不到比赛……”他喃喃地说道。到少林寺拍戏新剧《谁与争锋》多少弥补了清海的遗憾。他不仅可以在剧中大展身手，刀、枪、剑、棍轮流上阵，连求学时掌握的舞狮技艺，也派上了用场。“很少人知道我会舞狮，而且还拿过全国赛冠军。我11岁就加入学校的舞狮队，我是在舞狮队里开始练武术的。”从此，武术便成了清海生命中不可或缺的重要部分。　　
拍《谁》剧最大的收获，莫过于可以到神往已久的“武术之乡”——嵩山少林寺。“天下武功出少林，练武的人都会想到少林寺走一趟，没有人比我更想去。”清海对武术的热爱和执着可见一斑。　　
习武多年，清海在嵩山感受到的练武气氛，却是前所未有的。根据他的描述，嵩山上的武校有60至80间之多，最大的武校就有三万名学生。“你可以想像每天早上晨跑时，那种场面有多壮观！在往少林寺的途中，两旁都有人在练武，和售卖各式各样的武术器械，感觉就像置身在武术世界！”清海脸上闪烁着兴奋之情。虽然是拍戏，但清海踢腿挥拳时的利落，还是一眼就被在嵩山上练武的学生，识出是“武林高手”，而对他崇拜不已。“他们成天围着我，还追问我是不是《东游记》里的孙悟空。”在异乡遇上热情的小影迷，可把清海乐坏了！ 　　　　
一般到中国拍戏都是三个月，这次虽然只待了两个星期，却叫清海最难忘。为求有机会重返少林，即使要他为角色落发，他也在所不惜。辛苦换来满足清海坦言，《谁》剧是他拍得最辛苦的一部剧集。“我连续打了三个月，有时候一天要打上12小时，很耗体力和集中力。”回到家后，清海经常是累得妆也没卸，倒头便睡。　　
“有时导演已经说good take，我还会要求重来，因为我希望做得更好。我的个性是，要流完最后一滴汗，这是我当运动员时培养出来的。我记得我的教练曾说过，他不怕我不练，只怕我练过度。”他对自己的固执笑了。 　　
对武术的这份热爱，正是清海不断鞭策自己做得最好的推动力。《谁》剧虽然是他目前最满意的作品，不过“贪心”的他，对这出剧还有更高的期望。“我希望《谁》能把武术发扬光大，让不习武的人也知道什么是武德，同时带动本地武打剧的潮流。”尽管无法代表国家参赛，为国争光，清海何尝不也为中华武术尽了一份绵力？

Unexpectedly,reading vivian's blog,feel heart ache.....
So-call birthday,just a day of birth.it's a normal day.Don't mind too much...
high hope,just bring high disappoint.after alL.
That's alL.
what presents i received in my birthday this yr??...
2 photo frames and 1 btdy card.
also got some sincerely blessings from friends there...
v thankfully....=]
5 of them remembeR tt date just enough...
and besides,there was a silence welcome me when i reached home alone.
as usual...
At night,my parents come back,mum said happy birthday,dad nodded at me.
i replied:thank you!
another normal day passed.
though Object can't represent my true feeling they gave me,
i still nedd it 2 prove friendship...
juz be'coz hate myself i don't know what they R actually thinking....
torn 2 piece,4 piece,16 piece...
.。
.。
.。
.。
Now,i was happy.
At least im lucky 2 know i still alive in this world,with or without blabla.....
high hope,high disappoint.
shivering.
i'm cold.
NVM

i have been accepted admission for the Nitec Multimedia Technology program at MacPherson campus!!
feel great!
my first Choice!
two years!
It's just a begining!
go poly,it's time to work fucking hard.
B said.
thank you SO much!!!
trust me,
i'll do.
i promise!

yesterday when i cleaned my room with mum for the coming new year....she all of a sudden asked me with an innocent smile tt how many presents i received this year?... i turned up head from busyness and looked into her eyes,replied:'i got many.'....each time i scare she would ask me some questions eg.present,cOz im a failure....but sometimes the more you avoid something,the more you would face it soon....she was happy for me and asked without a bad intention:'Where are they?give me see a while.den which friend they are?Have you gave them their present??'....
i smiled:'ya....haha,they v happy they have a great friend lK me....',and passed a present jas gave me to her,that one which gt my name inside..only one i can find......
'oh.....em...nt bad...em...else?'
'em..oh,.i ate finish already.....haha..'i kept smile....but deep inside i have didn't know where was i at that moment....
'hai~~u this child...never think of me...hai....gt friend forget me...hai.....well,what presents are they??'mum sighed at me with joke...
'haha....chocolate lo something lk that...many fav la they gave...such as,******...haha...'i imagined all chocolate fav i know in mind and told her at once,smiling....oh,as long as my mum feel relief,i don't mind whatever lies i say...being a daughter,i really don't want my mother see me sad on face or what....i can't!!!...have to be happy,have to!!!!!!!
'haha....gt present le..haha...happy la hOr you this time...no longer feel alone?? childish!...haha....but don't forget next time leave some for me!,ok??'.........mum want me happy,while i want to see her happy..........haha....ya,won't alone anymore,i still have my mum at my side,fOreveR!!!!!! *I LOVE YOU,MA!!!!

at home.

From the very Begining, the girl's family objected strongly on her dating this guy. Saying that it has got to do with family background,& that the girl will have to suffer for the rest of her life if she were to be with him.
Due to family's pressure, the couple quarrel very often. Though the girl love the guy deeply, but she always ask him: "How deep is your love for me?"
As the guy is not good with his words, this often cause the girl to be very upset. With that & the family's pressure, the girl often vent her anger on him. As for him, he only endure it in silence.
After a couple of years, the guy finally graduated & decided to further his studies in overseas.Before leaving, he proposed to the girl: "I'm not very good with words. But all I know is that I love you. If you allow me, I will take care of you for the rest of my life. As for your family, I'll try my best to talk them round. Will you marry me?"
The girl agreed, & with the guy's determination,the family finally gave in & agreed to let them get married. So before he leave, they got engaged.
The girl went out to the working society,whereas the guy was overseas, continuing his studies.They sent their love through emails & phone calls.Though it's hard, but both never thought of giving up.
One day, while the girl was on her way to work,she was knocked down by a car that lostcontrol. When she woke up, she saw her parents beside her bed. She realised that she was badly injured.Seeing her mum crying, she wanted to comfort her.But she realized that all that couldcome out of her mouth was just a sigh. She has lost her voice......
The doctors says that the impact on her brainhas caused her to lose her voice. Listening to her parents' comfort, but with nothing coming out from her, she broke down.
During the stay in hospital, besides silencecry,.....it's still just silence cry thatcompanied her. Upon reaching home, everything seems to be the same. Except for the ringing tone of the phone. Which pierced into her heart everytime it rang. She does not wish to let the guy know. & not wanting to be a burden to him,she wrote a letter to him saying that she does not wish to wait anylonger.
With that, she sent the ring back to him. Inreturn, the guy sent millions & millions of reply,and countless of phonecalls,.. all the girl could do, besides crying, is still crying....
The parents decided to move away, hoping that she could eventually forget everything & be happy.
With a new environment, the girl learn signlanguage & started a new life. Telling herselfeveryday that she must forget the guy. One day,her friend came & told her that he's back. She asked her friend not to let him know whathappened to her. Since then, there wasn'tanymore news of him.
A year has passed & her friend came with anenvelope, containing an invitation card for theguy's wedding. The girl was shattered. Whenshe open the letter, she saw her name in it instead.
When she was about to ask her friend what'sgoing on, she saw the guy standing in front of her. He used sign language telling her "I've spent a year's time to learn sign language. Just to let you know that I've not forgotten our promise. Let me have the chance to be your voice. I Love You.With that, he slipped the ring back into herfinger.The girl finally smiled.

OHMYGODNESS!!!!!!!!!!....sO ToUcH man...hehe....feel so hard to look for a people,whether man or woman,being as same as him in this world!!hai~~~~~so ke xi!!.it's juz a story...if i were him,if i were him.....hai...would i still love tt girl deeply as usual??...hu know?? ...hahah.....hu knows??....bt no matter what happen,so hope tt social life don't change me too mUch 2 say:'i love you'...=D
momeries~~ 我的记忆

MeRrY cHrIsTmAs To AlL oF mY fRiEnDz!!!!! haha....happynEss!!!! neveR eVeR sAy GiVe Up!!!!!=}

一个人对另外一人好，总是有原因的？？？
what is my purpose 2 approach them? .....status?wealth?mOney?aUthOrity??......what a stuPid question!!!??....the Purpose of make SINGAPOREAN aS friend?????!!......Why i cant say just fOr i want a true friend??....be'cOz this purpose is too stupid??....If i just want to use them,y would i still so stupid 2 give them present before i leave??.......am used them juz i own nvr relise??...idon'tknowidon'tknow.....DON'T Scold me again!!!!!I cant stand it anymOre!!!!!...u're such idiot like that.... $#$#%$%$#%$#&*$^%#

wEll,yesterday i nvR go 2 class chalet with @..dunO in the end if she gt go alone ant??.....haha,i'm sorry,@...no accompany u....bt i spent time 2 look out for two suit reason tell u de la...firstly,it was too late 2 go out for me;secondly,i have no money 2 pay $10 already..hahha.....all Lame one.....hahaha.....hope u will believe....haha.....OH,im sorry! =D

Just now xiaoting called me and said tt i can go to parkaway 2 take my present she brought at 4pm.....den i call back,reply her i lazy go....haha....as if v da pai.....

nO mOre else.

hahaha..... 有人说：“付出就不要期望回报。这就是人生。这样做人才可以快乐，一辈子。”hahaha.....this time i realLy start believE it....No,mUst bE!!

有时候很奇怪，人与人之间，为什么总是隐瞒这个隐瞒那个，心口不一，反反覆覆就是在自寻烦恼。。. 很多东西不明白，问清楚不就好？？。。。。＝p.....hUmmmmmm.....but honestly,it's v hard 2 open month!!! haha....
我爱他而他不爱我，天下的事不都是一样？？感觉好像都不需要问就可以预测答案了。。。。。。居然世上还有相爱的人，在相同的时间，相同的地点，想着相同的事，然后爱上双方，白头偕老。唉白头偕老。天长地久。呵呵，像梦一样。。。

anyone of us (gareth gates)
i've been letting you down, down

girl i know i've been such a fool

giving into temptation

i should have played it cool

the situation got out of hand

i hope you understand

it can happen to anyone of us

anyone you think of

anyone can fall

anyone can hurt someone they love

hearts will break

cos i made a stupid mistak

esay you will forgive me

anyone can fail

say you will believe me

i can't escape

my heart will break

cause i made a stupid mistake

she was kind of exciting

a little crazy

i should have known

she must have altered my senses

as i offered to walk her home

she means nothing to me

nothing to me

i swear every word is true

i don't wanna lose you

love is all around (wet wet wet)
i feel it in my fingers,

i feel it in my toes

love is all around me and so the feeling grows

it's written on the wind,

it's everywhere i go

so if you really love me, come on and let it show

you know i love you i always will

my mind's made up by the way that i feel

there's no beginning, there'll be no end

'cause on my love you can depend

i see your face before me, as i lay on my bed

i kinda get to thinking of all the things we said

you gave a promise to me, and i gave mine to you

i need someone beside me in everything i do

Last thing,Let Me dO last thing fOr U... tHeSe songs,I know U know what these songs aRe....gO LoOk 4 them and paste here,jUst want 2 telL U tt there r ThrEe QuItE sTuPiD wOrD in my heart:I lOvE yOu! *** OK,what elSe can i say Lei??...Oh,if i find wRongly,jUst close one eye,open one eye hOr,Don't tOo serious lO cause hOw i know what sOng u realLy like la??!!!!!....=p.... its impossible i paste all songs here let u go choose ba??!!!!.....haha...=p

出界

你说明天就等明天
明天似乎离我太遥远
我在思念只能思念
用思念填充没有你的夜
寂寞冲破了底线
在心中盘旋
你看不见
任由心痛在蔓延
怎么勇敢去跨越
跨越怕感情出了界(你的爱还在不在)
全世界都在变(我只为了你存在)
你纵然不言悔
却从不曾了解我要的
不过就是能安定的感觉
怕真心出了界
(怎么说你才明白)
我已经走不开
(幸福的门为你开)
别只给你的爱
却不给我未来
我用什么等待

ate alot alot alot alot alot inside!!!!!!!!!! Feel want tO b3 backwaRd and have nO urge 2 make progresS......ok,nvm,time would pass v fast....i can waiT!!!! i wOuld wait tilL fulfiL it mYsElf !!!!!....mUsT b3!!! 2 y3Ars OnlY,waIt 4 m3 TwO yRs,can??....

总觉得，很多东西只有到了失去了才会懂得更珍惜。以前对朋友很憧懂，不懂的珍惜，失去了，站在飞机场盯着行李发呆，才知道想念已经来不及了。所以这次等到再有朋友，我真的珍惜了，学着迁就，要忍让，万事退一步，不要太小气。。。=]...我觉得我做到了，问心无愧。那些日子也真的很幸福。
但是，现在才发现，只有失去真正珍惜过，付出过，爱过的人，才是最痛苦的！。。。早知道不可以天长地久，何必要曾经拥有？？？。。。我的心很痛，痛到只想放弃，现在。。~~~~~~

PLUS:hahahhahahaHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA......forget it.... 我想通了啦！！！！哈哈哈。。至少以前和朋友在一起时我很快乐过。that's enough!!! 那些快乐不是我一个人的， be'cOz 所有人付出过，让我开心起来的是她们，cheer me up，所以我不可以这么自私，自己伤心难过。。。我真正该说的是感激。。。 哈哈哈。。。我变聪明了吧？！。*WinK*(^^,) ThAnKs SooooO MuCh!!!!...realLy!

Forget Me
Don't go around talkin' to your friends about me
Bury the past, just let it rest in peace
Leave well enough alone
Treat me like someone you've never known

Forget me
Like you forgot to come home at night
Forget me
Like you forgot to hold me tight
(Well) now you're sorry, now you cry
But don't you wipe those tears
'Til your memories run dry
Please!!!
forget me
Don't let the lonely days remind you of anything
Oh baby try to erase the fact we had everything
No you can't come back this time
So let me slip right out of your mind
Please forget me
'Cause I forgot to forgive and forget
So just pretend we never met

Baby, please forget me
please!!!!! there is a new life waiting for u,
I cannot stand tt i have lost u
So,forget!!!

go to Simei listen tt schedule for info Talks....den applied for 4 courses there....dunt mind what course i chose,juz want 2 come in simei here!.....afte r that v funny,when i listened lesson on de half way,i walked out of LT....see and walk around,den juz lost my way there.....haha......stUpid onE!!!!!...haha......

come to Jas house and discuss my course one....then chatted with @ in MSN.....she so sweet!!...ya,thankz!!!!....=].....i wrote down all my courses 2 her email add there in order 2 ask her 2 choose one suit 4 me....haha....as if it's her business.....hehe.....den gt xiaoting called me in hp and asked what am i doing...haha...really touch...feel as if finally gt friend remember and take good care of me.....=p....haha...sorry,maybe forget something,im blur one... spent much time 2 discuss with her my course one.... ..=]......FrIEnDz,thankz sOoo mUch!!!....lOvE yA!!!!!!..........
but leave me alone right now...hehe...no reason...juz leave...hehe....

always feeling like something 患得患失。。。。OH,never mind,never mind!!!everything would be Okay sOon......i will be happy again!!!=]

yesterday night put radiO beside me and sat spending whole night 2 listen YES933..haha..no la......fall asleep at 11pm.....becOz can't stand to awake anymore.....haha...im piggy......so also chat with jas for few minutez only.....

.hate 2 receive a short msg from friendz there....but...haiyO.....xiaoting msg ppl anyhow always lk a announcement ....................-_-""".....cold sound,cold emotion,cold punctuation marks...cold to siaO lah!!!!!...haha.....forget it....hai,dear,i really don't know how 2 say you already.....handphone conversation does not a face-to -face conversation that can go through ur expression 2 understand what ur true mean alright......hai......okok....i shut up!!

later go 2 take result......so fast today coming...start from tml i have 2 apply for ***....so there's no time 2 lend me play here play there anymore....=p.....hOpe can pasS!!!!!!!....my life cannt live without friendz siA......=p.....joke joke.....don't scare.....just say say one!!!!...haha

GoOd LuCk!!! u R tHe BeSt!!!!

1 days more.......do you nervous for coming result??.......my answer is NO.really.....dunO y......hai

blOod type: A+AB=O??.....gt possible?????????????///.......

FF8. <Eyes on me>：

Whenever sang my songs
On the stage,on my own
Whenever said my words
Whishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy
You'd always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar

My last night here for you
Same old songs,just once more
My last night here with You ?
Maybe yes,maybe no
I kind of liked it you're your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me
Oh,did you ever know ?
That I had mine on you

Darling,so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

So let me come to you
Close as I wanted to be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast
And stay there as I whisper
How I loved your peaceful eyes on me
Did you ever know
That I had mine on you

Dailing,so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if you're holding back
Or pain if that's what it is
How can I let you know
I'm more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out then
You will know that you're not dreaming

Darling,so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

suppose 2 meet up xiaoting at 1pm....den later she said tt called cynstina, joanna and xue come together as well already....i start feel lazy le....four of them go shopping and walking around,two by two juz balance,where am i??..keep follow behind?...honestly i don't want...haha.....

..........really really piss off..........

wait till sO long,bt in the end i don't knOw anything instead still waiting fOr others told me...

fOrg3t it

弦歌寄意主持人收，P.O.BOX 933, SINGAPORE 912899

人性是腐烂的。而我，却是连那些腐烂的心的人也看不起的人。shame on being a human being. 觉得我的心真的已经冷了， 对 于 人，心 灰 意 冷。。。以前小孩子之间的吵闹然后口无遮拦的出口伤人，可以美其名曰：童言无稽。因为孩子还小，不懂事。然后孩子上了学，有了知识与文盲不再挂钩时，还是常常乐于在别人背后'暗箭伤人’，谈吐粗俗，出卖朋友，不懂敬老尊贤，何故？？古曰：人之初，性本善。所以也罢，就暂视为'家教不严’，全是父母的错好了。可能因为学校里的学生还没有长大，心智还没有成熟，不懂得谦让和包容。。。
于是等等等，现在，我终于出社会了，以为成人之间一定可以得到应有的尊敬和礼貌，因为所谓的成人代表已经经历沧桑，思想成熟什么世事都看通了的人，不会大惊小怪，不再三姑六婆， 道人是非。。。结果。。 竟更是变本加厉！。。。 说什么人长大就会懂事，全是屁话。自私自利，舍人利己，什么教养也没有，完全是一群猪狗不如的畜生！猪狗还真是可怜，莫名其妙被拿来跟人作比较。
有能力的被人妒忌，有实力的被拿来比较，永远不会想自己有没有错！！！人前不敢说话，永远只会在背后磨牙咧齿诅咒人。 小人！！！ 所 以。。。。
树大招风，
人红招妒。
人与人自相残杀，做人做到这种程度，真的是很失败。看到他们，我好像看到年老的自己，从孩子 到学生，从学生到职员，懂事不懂事懂事不懂事，恶性循环。活了一辈子，恨了一辈子，到最后还是回到了原点像一个不懂事的孩子一样永远童言无稽。我真的很累去做一个人。

什 么 是 权 威？？ 我 迷 惑。

今天JC良心发现，把我调去别的office 做事,paper work something..一开始以为她哪有这么好所以我说不定又要受苦了，可最后知道我和另外3个新调去的竟然是最幸运的人。因为听说我原来label 的朋友被Supervisor骂到很惨不忍睹。。。而我们4个万幸逃过一截！！！ OH,my god,too happy 2 believe tt all of us were just sitting in office,no standing,chatting and making jokez whole day no ppl asked us 2 work anything!!!.....WoW!!!!so wonderful!!!!.... 一天只要坐在一起摆美聊天就可以赚到＄40。。。。hahahaha!!!!!。。。

And,今天和我一起的3ppl, 2个本来就是朋友，另一个就是ah-lian with a head of gold one....starting i sat away alone lk a id***,den forgot when we juz started chatting and gt a long conversation till over...... 记得好像是起源于我问Jasmine一句：‘ 你是怎么保养皮肤啊？？’。。。。=p.......even though Jasmine looks lk more Ah-lian than A-mei,i like Jasmine better cOz her character actually not bad,as if v fierce at times but inside dame friendly one...i felt la.... den we sat together during lunch time...after tt,2 of them went 2 outside smoking,A-mei's friend and me just standed beside and accompanied them...but lata i really cannt stand it anymore and told Jasmine i go first coz i feel sensitive 4 smoke at timez...unexpectedly,she asked me wait a while and THEN putted out fire on her hand immediately!!!!!!!!!!!!!.....feel a bit extremely flattered and sorry as well!!..... 受 宠 若 惊。。。。。 my gOd....*wink*

my department,Label, is under JC....the most mean Fuk i eveR seen!!!!!....whateveR mistakez she made is big or small,she must would push far away as fast as possible,or shift the blame to somebody else!!!!!!.... 卑鄙！！！十足的小人一个！！缩头乌龟！！！！ Today so shUcksssss..... Y i must still stay back in this company???....paid $6 to office thanks 2 her!!!!!!.... 推 卸 责 任，being一个管工就可以自以为是？争锋夺利，欺善怕恶，唯命是从的对上司像一只哈巴狗一样摇尾巴。。。is a leader always like that in social??..NO!!I DON'T BELIEVE! I CANNT ACCEPT!。。。what is power?what is leadership??how to be a perfect leader that every worker under her would feel safe and respect her from the bottom of heart????????!!!.....tell me!!!!shOw me....

Ayh...anyway find there is a msg thing going around today,it said abt today is World's Best Friend,asking me 2 send it 2 eight friendz,my best friendz 1... den i start thinking of friendz....den i replied Denise tt does best friend mean there is 1 only in someone's heart...she laughed and agreed with me.....hehe....den tt's why i forward it and sent 2 one ppl only.haha.....

yesterday felt cold 2 core...so today i wear double 2 work,but in the end 全身还是都一直在发抖，不知道为什么。。。maybe tt air-con turn lower 2 max coz know i have weared double.... bu hao xiao....hai...my god....i would become ice-cream soOn if everyday lk that 啦!!!!!!!

i am happy!! really happy!!! Everything will be okay soOn i know.something missing,something gt gain,and finally i straighten out my mind..... Silly!!!!....Old enough but still believe some stupid thingz...hai....hehe......i will be fine...i have become fine already!...ya......

went out with xiaoting after work..reached home saw xt left me a msg abt our meet changed 2 5pm...so gt enough time 2 take a rest on my bed...so lazy sia.....haha....den gt alot of laughter on our way...very happy....butde most upsetest thing was she said she has ate with Meili before already so no matter what i begged she just keeped refusing 2 eat a romatic meal with me....haha....den no idea i just brought something else 4 her bring home....even though she said she liked them so much,(haha,nO lah...)dunO its true ant...haha.....xiaoting,whenever u eat finish them,pls remember you have a v gd ad sweet friend lk me,ok?love me,ok??...haha......we walked around till 7pm.brought O'lay Total Effects,$22.50, and a box of Redoxon with 30 tablests,$13.5...... 零 零 碎 碎 加 起 来，1.5+10.5+2.4+13.5+22.5+2=52.4 onli...juz 2 days 2 hours plus half....nO wonder can keep so relax...spend pay is one of way 2 feel relax at times....=]

gt pay list of this half month today. feel nothing already. who believe im the second higher one among those friendz!!!.THE HIGHEST ONE is Suhua,$792!!!! she definately is a really crazy gal,we really don't know what word can decribe her already!everyday notice she looks sick and feel her hands so cold when she touched me awhile one time,ad said feeling unwell is her self but next day still gt see her come working!!!! haiz...hehe....dunnO sO hard 4 what?!!!!!......still young one and a student..... -_-'''...Then my daddy seemed v glad tt i havnt quit job yet,while ma asked me dunt be 22 crazy one. afterwards when i told her tt how much Suhua's salaries tk,she juz no wordz out anymore. hehe. everytime i took $ out of bank give parentz,everytime i would feel relax a bit and reduce a sense of sorry for them!!!!......

suppose 2 meet xt go eat tml.cannt wait!!!...=].....!!!!!!!! hUgzZZZZZZ

going 2 sleep liao.today work so tired! haha.c ya. gd nightz!!!!

dunnO y my comment from Ka cannt show in de blog.......qi si le la.....

Ka: 。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。i speechless!...okok,i have become v pOor these days cOz i have spent finish my all salaries already,sO i,needless to say,am too destitute 2 return ur meal all right.....unable 2 treat le,as u want le ba................ya,haha,even though u start hate me 4 breaking my promise also no use already!!!!....u take caRe,tOo!....haha..=]

come back!!..*i really miss those days i loved u sO.*

上班的时候突然回忆起很多往事，好像电影倒带再重播一样。我除了说时间已经一去不复返了，还可以说什么呢？？那些日子呀，真的似梦境一样太幸福了！！！为什么我竟没有好好珍惜 它？？？？？？？分开的朋友现在真的再也杳无音讯。人海茫茫！！正如KA一个MSG所说的，friendz are like balloons,Once you let them go,You can never bring them back.....
张 莉 莉，整整4年的小学朋友， 曾经是如漆如胶的我们，现在竟已像两个世界的人一样 ，各占天涯一方，从此自扫门前雪。已经6年没有见面 ！！！！6 年 了！！！！！
李 平和卢 啸 峰就不提了，朋友以上关系的朋友，伤心过的人，时间再长也是昙花一现。
李 晓 凤， 后 钰 婷， 许 庆 菲。 我 最 好 的 朋 友， 当 时。
现在终于相信时间有时真的可以淡忘很多回忆。甚至可以让另一个人取代模糊的位子。现在我所有的记忆竟已经全是现在的朋友 的时光！ 无论快乐还是悲伤。呵呵，一直在回忆和KA and XT同桌的日子。哈 哈。。。真的很幸福呀！即使是静静额坐在她们身边听她们说话也会感觉自己很快乐。我一直会听KA所说的每一句话，有时即使正在和XT or JAS说话，as long as她 在我旁边开口，我就会条件反射的停下所有动作听她说什么。 为此XT还对我生气了很久很久，can feel差点就要和我绝交了。。。 哈哈。。。幸好幸好她大人不计小人过，忘记了。哈哈。。＝p。。。不过，从此以后真的第一次知道我自己竟然会在乎一个人到这种程度。。。。。。。。 在想，如果真的每个人都可以被代替，那么难道我真的会有一天忘记她们，就像张莉莉一样吗，就像KA所说的？？？我 不 要！！！再一个6年我就老了，真的老了! 唉。。。 呵呵呵。。。哈哈。。。as if i think too much,maybe.

Ka: i won't spend my salaries too much...haha....im sure i would save some enough 2 treat u de....haha....jkjk.... thanks soooo much ur caring,darling!!!!!!! ^*LoVe yA*....i really can understand what u mean behind each words u reminded...^^,.....*hUgZzzzzzz ya+..howeveR i cant break my promise myself...hehe... by de way,when u gt free??

these day feel v unwell...dunO y....juz feel from inside....work ok,my family fine,everything is ok as usual...bt i juz still feel sick,den when i unable 2 find reason,it make me sick more....during my work time in de morn around 10am,my heart beatED heavily all of a sudden....v pain 2 make me breath 2 normal.......doubt if there is something wrong with my ppl or friendz??............i don't know...sO all i can say is TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF!!!!!!MUST.

chatting with Ka and jas in msn for age after back home...spent alot of time with them along,finally..haha.....seems lk their holiday get not bad...haha...tt's so good!haha....love ya!!

miss you sOooo much!

these days use my own salaries 2 shoppin feeling so great!!!!!haha.

CORRECT: actually i work everyday for myself,in order to earn money with my own hand.
ok,that's all!!!.

Jas baby: Can we go out together be4 taking result??...becOz im sure i fail tt bla bla one,so take reslut tat day i comfirm no mood 2 go out or what de la all rit!!!...haha...Dunt too stress liao you gal,otherwise it may would affect our skin and become worse...believe me O!!!!sO cheer Up!!! tK cR! *lOvE yA!!!!

It's stronge how U can go 4 years and years letting other people be responsible 4 the way you think and dress and eat,what you learn,how you speak,and all of suddern you find you've broken away from all tt web of protection and U 're free....

i am so lazy to write anything!...

suppos3 2 meet up xt after work yesterday,but when i called her at 3pm,she said she was eating at home...den we juz deleted de plan lOl...and today called her again,its started raining so no choice just cannt go out and meet her...haiyO,xiaoting,you cheat my feeling la,waste my energy 2 bring clothes 4 changing from here 2 there as well...so heavy leh and so big and ugly it looks when i putted it in bag u dunO!...haha...jkjk,nvm,cOz thanks u save my money so kind...haha.....lOve yA to heart!!!!!...haha.....@ also!...they all sound like scaring i spend my salaries 4 them and ever ask me 2 save myself...hehe...thankz sOoooo much..haha...but what the purpose 2 earn money is??of cOz for using all right,use for friendz,parentz and all peoplez i love....y would i work everyday last 3 weeks?what power 2 push me woke up at 5am everyday??... 我觉得 i still little 2 supply any car or house or water and electricity fee... buy hp or clothes or what no need i pay myslef and wouldn't go 2 spa as well......so i have left enough....sO trust me,i really really really don't mind treat my peoplez i care v much these tiny amount as long as u don't ask Abalone or Shark's fin juz can le .... ....

hehe,hai....explain so hard till as if its fake....hehe.okok,stop here...=]....haha....message me if u'r free,ok??...work hourz is not bad at all...wouldn't feel boring at least!.....haha...ya,that's all..nitz!!

Juz now chatting with Xiaoting in hp,gt alotz laughter,v happy,den suddenly dunO y i had a bad cough,non-stop....a sore throat...cannt talk again for age....i nearly burst into tears all right...doubt if she heard what were i talking abt...then,feel as if the more i want 2 talk,the more gt cough out of control lk a idiot...555555.....hope tml would feel better becasue i have suppused 2 meet up her after work lol...hehe....all the best!!!

today is 23rd of Nov,juz leave 5 days more and you would leave la...isz??haha....all the best 2 yOu!@ tK cR!

dunnO y throat suddenly become aching, and recently my sound lower till unable 2 hear it clearly.... so piss off...x[[....what a useless!...hai...ok la,forget it,it will be recovery itself one day,after all.

Haha.....gt check bank account ytd and found a damn great number inside!!!!!!!....not v far from my expect....oh,i can fly...11days+2 saturday+2 sunday+2 holiday. Promised tt i would work there everyday including holiday,and i did!!!...so its my deserved....haha...proud of myself la....hehe...

OH,everybody,today i no working at home...haha...feel so free so happy at this moment....when O'clock rang,dunt know y juz feel lazy 2 wake myslef up in de early morning again today...so take mc using lol.....hehe....my dad saw me lying there nvr move and said nothing juz help me close my door behind him;after a while,ma come in and sat down beside my bed,smiling,and asked with her hand on my forehead:'feel better ant? its great 2 take a rest all right!... 好 好 休 息 今 天。'....den i feel so touching want 2 giggle 2 them...c me how happiness is!!!!!.....im the most happy child in this world!!!haha.... lOve Ya wOrLD!!!!

Finally bump into Agares in msn....there are long time nvr c him le all right....3 days already le ba??....haha....lame la....ok..j/k....
Nvr sms @ got two days already as well...yOyo,got miss me ma??...haha...it feels as if a thousand years have passed since i last message her. haha...i didn't expect u miss me,but didnt you miss my msg abit once these days??....didn't sms u seems nth 2 do in de morning....haha....want 2 sms u lei....haha...cOz tml i will take this half month pay again...=].....haha....jealous i got pay ba??!!!!!!...haha,,so happy!

today our manager act funny.... whole week we all work rush till tired 2 die...den today when Lijun finally murmured with confused sound:'forget it,don't mind me,i juz want 2 做 死 自 己。'.she suddenly appeared behind us quietly lk a ghost and said:'want die??nO problem a,but all of u have 2 finish ur work 4 me be4 dying all right...work ur flex nOw!!!!!!!'....we paused there,standing, 哭 笑 不 得.......
next thing was someone took a tray of handphone set in hand and nearly 要 跌 倒 了，she saw and run over 2 him so tense at once and....asked:'how's my set? you can fall,bt set cann't,remember,ok?'.....we turned back head immedately seemed nvr heard anything and den joking behind out of control.....haha......it's a laughter between work day.......hehe...

sleepy le....hehe.....good nitz...bB.

Yesterday of yesterday,Xiaoting greeted me at 11.38 in the morning,i'm sure it's 11.38am when she sent me cOz my inbox still got saving her msg...and said GOOD MORNING!!!!...haha....sO happy 2 read it!!!!!..bUt please call her LITTLE PIG!!!..haha...

deaR XT>>>lOvE yA!!!haha.....=]hUgZ....dArLiN,get alotz of stuffz 2 tell u....haha...when ur work off??....lOng tyme nvr c U,miSs yA sO much!!!....
@,Jas and Xiaoting,nxt Tues or Wed i dunt want go 2 work le...tK mc at last....haha...den,three of U want go out and have a fun if u'r free?? wait ur reply. lOvE yA!!

我不害怕 - 梁静茹 - 美丽人生
你有多了解，我的每一天心情，都是怎么交接
夜里回家,容不容易找到车位
我多想知道
在你的世界,什么你会放最前面
不然我只是成全了你的时间
你的时间,我不害怕.
你的爱不够坚强,我能想像我就是你未来认定的家
那无关渴望,那无关爱不爱呀!
我不害怕,幸福到此就融化
如果不能让你看清楚快乐和悲伤
有一股力量,让人等不及分享.我多想知道人与人之间,能走在一起的时间.相信一开始的直觉,就能了解,就能了解.
( 好不容易回家，等到的只是空空的屏幕。没有留意没有简讯，突然觉得好笑，像一个小孩，渴望人的在乎，在每时每刻。childish!!! 我不怕时间一去不会，只怕一事无成，到最后一无所有。)

王菲--红豆
还没好好的感受，雪花绽放的气候。
我们一起颤抖 会更明白，什么是温柔！
还没跟你牵著手 走过荒芜的沙丘
可能从此以后 学会珍惜 天长和地久
有时候 有时候 我会相信一切有尽头。
相聚离开
都有时候 没有什么会永垂不朽
可是我 有时候 宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透 也许你会陪我看细水长流
还没为你把红豆 熬成缠绵的伤口。然后一起分享 会更明白 相思的哀愁
还没好好的感受 醒著亲吻的温柔可能在我左右 你才追求孤独的自由
（注：喜欢王菲就是因为她把歌词的含义诠释的感人肺腑。如果朋友像她这样，那我就可以想像天长地久，不是梦想！曾经何时我以为找到了那个人，可是现在好像又失去了。Y？惶惶忽忽，患得患失。说不累，是假的)

江南 - 林俊杰 - 第二天堂
风到这里就是粘，粘住过客的思念
雨到了这里将成线，缠着我们留恋人世间。
你在身边，就是缘，缘分写在三生石上面。
爱有万分之一甜，宁愿我就葬在这一天。
圈圈园园圈圈。甜甜粘粘甜甜的。
我深深看你的脸，
生气的温柔，埋怨的温柔的脸，不懂爱恨情愁煎熬的我们，都以为相爱就像风云的善变。
相信爱一天抵过永远。在这一刹那，冻结了时间。
不懂怎么表现温柔的我们，还以为殉情，只是古老的传言。
离愁能有多痛痛有多浓
当梦被埋在江南烟雨中
心碎了才懂
嗯~~~耶~~~music...
(决定就是这首歌了。没有理由的理由。就是喜欢它的旋律。)
Jas>>>can leave a comment in your blog??want to tell you sth but there is no place 2 write 4 me....haha.....mIsS yA!!!

today morning really feel like don't wake up from my sweet bed ad can keep sleeping fOr eveR.....but nothing can stop time flying,nothing....when it's 5.30,i juz jumped out of bed as fast as i could,sighing.....有工作就要撑下去，否则once机会失去就再也不会回来了...like what @ said:忍一时风平浪静，退一步海阔天空。 I BEAR!!!! haha!

See doctor again afte work...mum forced me have to...Boring!...den got 3 medicine:Almag,Erazon and Polpocetanol. just write down...for next time easy to buy medicines and no need see doctor first and hear her say,you come again??... nth 2 say leh.gd nitez.

我竟然会吃醋，哈哈，完了！

work as usual....today v peaceful...we all be seperated by our deaR manager...i go back flexing again..with Yoyo together....haha.....LiJun housing;Lily label;JiaLe packing...manager said she doesn't want me go packing or housing..think hard still don't understand y....but i prefer 2 scan hp anyway.actually...it wouldn't hurt my hand,afteR all.....haha... busy from here 2 there in work,and finally forgot what i want 2 forget...haha......................

今天收到玉婷的简讯，很惊喜，好久好久没有她的消息了，换了手机号码后杳无音讯，就在以为再也不会联系的时候，她又出现了！！！。。。事事难料！她说她的生活一言难尽。突然很感触。是啊，一言难尽，有时唯一可以形容自己生活的遭遇的词只有，一言难尽！！！她说上海冬天很冷，现在她快冻僵了。呵呵，好怀念冬天哦！！！以前每次我都会抱住很烧很烧的热水袋不放，卷缩在棉绒被子里赖床，感觉幸福的不可理喻。现在，呵呵，这种感觉再也不会有了。时间，很快呀！。。。真的真的真的很想她。。。深深的思念。

gd nitz....=]

During flexing,chatting with Lily,a new friend made in a new department today...haha.....den 我们不知不觉讲到手机费，她说，很贵，因为她男朋友天天打电话或者传简讯给她，开始她很感动，觉得自己很幸福之类的，可是后来因为觉得麻烦所以一看见他的名字就很想erase.... 我一听到这里就呆住，她看我若有所思，一愣一愣的样子就问我what's wrong with me?as if失恋的感觉....我笑出来，说‘没什么，只是觉得你的男朋友很可怜，哈哈。’。。。然后我跟她说有时我也会天天sms我朋友，连续不断的那一种。。。‘所以如果每个人都像你一样，那我就完了。’。。。她看着我，在一旁想了很久，突然问了我一句话：‘难道你不觉得可能你已经打扰他们的生活了吗？就像我一样。只是他们没有说出来而已。’。。。
‘。。。他们不是你，毕竟。我朋友每次都有回电给我。’
‘他们是你朋友所以会回电，可就是因为要回电所以才开始觉得麻烦啊！’
无言以对。我当时真的不知道该说什么好。因为那不是我可以回答的问题。他们会觉得厌烦吗，我真的不知道。一种无助排山倒海。我一直是这样一意孤行，以为是想念，却其实已经困扰了别人。为什么？？？！！！！我需要时间好好反省自己。唉。

A>>>谢谢你说不会troubled，无论真假，无论谎言还是安慰，我都选择相信。我是真的觉得很感动。哈哈。不过，我不会再一清早传msg打扰你们的睡眠了，哈哈，don't worry.haha.因为我没钱了。哈哈。SwEeT dReAm!! gD nIgHtZ!!!!

early morning K sms me a meassage...really so early sia..its time i juz out of house ad took a bus....actually it was a time she used still sleeping deep i guess.... haha.....sO,feel so touching....我不是被简讯的内容感动，而是她的举动，无论真的有心还是无意，可那种会有人想到你的感觉，真的真的很幸福！！！。。。你知道的。。。as if i can saw tt she woke up from dream and started messaged me ad den went back to sleep again...终于明白其实感动真的不需要理由。。。在乎的人，只要一个动作一句话，even,juz enough.....=]....*touched*..thank U sO mUch，K!!!!!...lOvE yA!!!。。。

Today changed department....so far from my old friend....den during lunch time,i sat with those new one,those teenagers,and ate.....Oh,my gOd...want 2 mad at them,almost....know what?? they talked abt how this or that guy look like all the time!!!....thats OK actually,but later they repeated asking me rite?rite?rite?? 2 make me talk cOz i sat there with closing mouth for age...even though i dunt mind,in fact...and forced me have to respond them,even....i almost wan 2 said not my business,i dunO,etc....but i didn't in de end....felt tat's too rude and im also not going 2 stir up trouble anyway...im timid,indeed....sO juz opened mouth in half way and replied,OK LAH....they turned 2 look each other and started laughing....i felt like go away and looked for elder friendz immediately!!....they would make me feel not boring and cheer up....bt ending i didn't again!!!!...im stupid 2 mAx!!!!!....hate me!!!!!!

There is nothing happen in tthese day....but begin feel shame on myself!!...hai...well, Manager asked me if i wanted do OT yesterday,and den when i started complain how tired im feel,a woman walked over and putted her hand on my shoulder and smiled:'小妹，如果你这样就叫累，那么等你长大你就不用活了。因为除了工作还有一大堆的家务等着你回家去做呢！这就是我们的生活。’ 然后还讲了一些她老公和孩子的事，为了照顾他们，她一下子苍老了很多。看着她的皱纹，突然明白这就是为什么女人比男人更容易变老的原因了－－过度操劳！！！32岁，她只有32岁，却已有42岁的疲惫倦容！！！my gOd! I dOn't want liKe that when im at her age!!!!i definately don't want!!.

有一句话关于女人她说的很幽默，being a woman,要不美丽，要不聪明，如果一样都没有，那干脆死了最好！。。。。我就又想到另一句：同样是经历坎坷，长的漂亮的女人，叫传奇；长的丑的，就叫正常了。what a reality! there is nO fair in de world. 谁不想一生下就是美女，可又有多少人如愿以偿？？

Suddenly shame on myself deep inside...work several hours only,就叫苦连天，要死要活！成合体统？！！！世界上还有太多比我更累的人，对比下我又算什么？一根洋葱都不值！。。。没用没用没用！！！！！。。。

want 2 work everyday....and anyhow no longer say im tired always!!!!...但也要保养！！！！必须！

ok,byebye,go 2 sleep.

Friendz,how s your holiday?? mIsS yA aLl sO!!!!!dUnt sleep too late,its not goOd fOr Ur Health,all right!...=]....88

Tml is holiday. haha...HAPPY Deepavali Day!!!!everyone i love! and next monday is Hari Raya Puasa,a public holiday as well.......wOw....get overtime 2 earn....haha...hehe...wat else can i say??..*sIgh*..actually not very eager in working in holiday!!!!!...but who believe??...original i have had a plan with my family already... but my so 'great' Manager asked me must come and stay by tml as if i am v important 4 running Line... feel touched and wanted as well....but on the other hand,im a human,nt a machine after all...i clear tt i unable to stand throu 12 hours and work nOn-stop,all rite??... haha...hai....manager have stated tt i have to work everyday include holiday and saturday and sunday if i still want this jOb anyhow....Em...is it a threaten??....hehe

kk...i need a sleep..bB.Miss yA every1!!!

今天很放肆。乱生气，又倒了很多垃圾食物进肚子！！！感觉很失落，不敢喝酒，因为喝醉的话，明天上班头会很痛！所以一味只想依赖零食来弥补，遗忘。可是，结果竟然愈来愈糟，整个头都重重的。好怀念学校的日子，一直坐住，只需要听课说话睡觉。那时的天空都是蓝的。单纯。现在从5am出门一直关在厂里等到3点放工，一看见太阳，就恍如隔世。我真的累了！还是读书最好！！！！

A>>>你什么时候出发？？不带手机，那么在厦门可以用电脑吗？回复在xanga.

bB.i gTg....hehe.

Well,yesterday go check my bank,and find my salaries have entered in already!!!....haha...all worries and tired gone at once...
6 days + 1 saturday +2 sunday = $420

nOt bAd,much than what i expected...haha..

对于我的工作和那些人，我不知道该说什么。又来了5个students part-time,16，17岁的年龄，可是对30，40左右的aunt竟然没有一点尊敬！！！问aunt借东西从不放称呼，ABCDE，叫一声，“喂，我要这个东西可以吗？”然后就直接拿走了，好像是她们家里的一条狗一样没名没姓，喂来喂去，先斩后奏，没礼貌，真的不知道她们的教育是读到哪里去了？？连最基本的respect也不懂，i really can't stand it!!!..start dislike them to max!!!...hai...and i know they all also dislike me cOz i ever frown on in front of them when they complain those aunts' speed too fast to follow...y dunt think cOz of their too slow??....and then during lunch time,i sat with 3 aunt a table together...they are v understanding and patient to listen to others talk...always take care of me and teach me what i have to avoid and do properly in work...sometimes i feel they can read my mind and give me some useful advice i nvr think abt before...Oh,i proud of them sO much!!!.....perhaps im suitable fOr them..haha.....im older one..haha...

Something have definately changed around me.either my parents attitude Or my own opionin,even though dunO it change to better or worst,i am happy to find it eailier. i hate past one to Max,after all...still believe there is real friendship and true relationship,bt i will learn 2 love myself mOre nW!!!Stay happy 4eveR!!!!

明天就是发工资的日子，我的第一份工资，没什么太激动，因为怕乐极生悲，空欢喜一场。反正我没有什么必须拥有的东西，比如new handphone,shoes or clothes,我都觉得不需要。无所谓的stuff. nth after all. 所以我决定给我爸妈全部的工资。孝顺他们先比给自己用更有意义。再说，我把工资给父母，他们就会很开心，他们一开心，就会给我钱，然后我给他们的钱就又回来我的口袋了，hahaha....how clever am i!!!!!

I love yOu!!!...=]....hopE 2 bE wiF u 4eVeR!...niTez!!!

start Flexing first today in work..den went to work label till nothing to run already...3 of new one are called to do housing...and den went packing for a while....after lunch...got some1 said line 3 in Label needs ppl to run...so three of us backed to there again....lk some rubbish are thrown by others from here to there....hehe....its lK 整个制作手机的过程我都做过了！。。。haha..not bad...as its a experience lo.

work off...took bus go home and took a bath and den rushed out of hse....when i reached sch,i thought i was late..bt luck A's training havent finish yet... walked here and walked there and looked at sunset 4 a while,its so nice...i felt im nt enough to look it...until duno what time Miss Gou finally end of her conversation and dismissed them..haha...first time know tt Miss Gou v fUnny,kind,friendly and cheerful one..haha....den taught A GO but i dunO hOw to teach...got two more else i dunO setting in front of us,listening....i nvr say dislike,but juz felt unwell,haha,jk,that's true tt there is abit strange la....hehe....sOri....actually i juz want to return ur help u gave me,i owe u toO much already,after all...but tis time its lK i nvr return anything cOz i know you still dunt understand how 2 play rite??...sOri....i know u can feel what i mean behind this pologise de...hehe....thank U sO much anymOre !!!

Checked Friendster ad den saw Xiaoting dropped me a testimonial....beri happy!!!....but den,dunt know y feel lk her sounds unhappy...and said tt im her best friend even though i dont take her as my best friend,even...hehe....doesn't you know me much??then y u still would feel that?...haha...Xiaoting yOu are my dearest and cutiest girlfriend siA!!!!i miSs yA and cherish our friendship so sO sO mUch!! That's true! nO1 would be able to replace u in my heart cOz DEAREST means dearest one lo as same as best means there's one person only rite?... don't understand y got many pPl say tt they have a lot of best friendz around...what on earth got many friends being called 'best one' by ppl at the same time??...i remember i told u guo de.. =p...thick face,haha,If you want and won't mad at me,i swear i will greet yOu a GD MORN in every morning and won't stop!!!!!...haha....its my promise,wan??hahah... leave a comment on my site if you are able to read this,or SMS...ok?haha..pls la! lOve yA!!!!

Oh,my gOd!!!...jUz nOw S called me!...i thought she has forgot what is my blog address le...haha...there is a long slience between us as if we nothing to say,in face coz i wanna cry when she's talking on the phone and its very hard to keep talking when i attempted to stop brust my tears...haha.....U know what i mean de rite?!!!!.....Friendz4eveR

today no tired!!!

Im sick...when i was asked to scanning here packing there nOn-stop,i was sick; when an aunt reminded me don't work too fast otherwise others would be jealous and think me 'hao lian' in order to grab their jobz and den start bully me,i felt sick; 人心难测！ when i realised tt not because im a new one sO i have to work AND run everything ,i was sick!...some1 help me while some1 push me!...what a reality!!!work off at 3 o'clock in de afternoOn...den...when i heard his cold voice in hp,i was sick to death...as if i totally couldnt breathe!....Y everything have to happen at the same time??.....可以不要说话吗？。。。不想说话！不想说话！我不想发音！！！

hai...i surely forgot all of GO rules already!!!..what did my dad say are all different from my memories of GO i known...die le...den my dad laughed me y suddenly got interest to learn GO,i laughed back and said:'just want to test you la!'...while my mum scolded me non-stop wasting time to take a rest or i can choose 2 go learn English as well...i nodded softly without a word as if im v docile 2 agree wif her....and when she went away,i backed my attention to guide at once...haha...well,sometimes wonder 我这样做到底为了什么？？可是过后又觉得想太多很累，所以就算了。。哈哈。。。forget it...反正尽力就好，我不会后悔。haha...

my waist v pain these day...but i don't have courage 2 tell mum it...trying to imagine how i would tell her if she was there,and what she would nag to me about it all...i couldnt imagine it...where on earth do the words come from??...feel its my own business,as if i can heard what she say to i duno how to look after my health after she knew.....

juz come back from hospital...Ma kept her sound around me from there to here...feel i would be mad some time...regretted i told her tt my waist so pain tt cant wake up in e morn...maybe i should say i juz feel tired to lazy waking up!!!......damn.

im tired!

我欲乘风归去，唯恐君楼玉宇，高处不胜寒。

人有悲欢离合，月有阴晴圆缺，此事古难全。但愿人长久，千里共婵娟。

today very unlucky to bump into a selfish women... @#$*%.... She changed from other unknow group...and replaced my friend's position...she said she has working here for 2 years...WHAT an UNBELIEVABLE!!!...to use a shIt woman lk her is the most pOor thing to e company....hu sUch stupid?!!!...wEll,she kept her own batteries on ice didnt use and took away mine ... and den went forwards and told our group leader tat i left working place when i was looking 4 them!!!!!!...What a shiT!!!....after leader scolded me and left,she walked forwards me and passed to me my batteries,smiling:'Oh,sOri,i think it's a mistake tt i take wrong one le.they're urs??'....!!!!!!.....在心里骂了她一遍又一遍，den i smiled back and shooked head:'no,not mine.i go and take new 1 now.'...留下她一个人在原地惊讶。。。谁会要再拿被她这种人碰过的东西？？nEveR！！！！！。。。.my first job,my first time be scolded by leader in working in my life...我一定会报复的！！！！！。。。下一次我要扔掉她的batteries!!!!

These day i seem lk start changing to impatient....very easy to lost my temple at working..always feel depressed and helpless at times....hate me!!!!...im tired.
在工作中认识很多朋友，they're fine ppl,understanding and caring,industrious and generous to a falut....above 20 yrs old at least... feel v comfortable with them....bt wouldn't take a touch as same as before...somethings have happened and left and den died...so i won't believe friendship anymore....em...hehe...ya...i never feel down or sad or what....天下无不散的宴席。。。活着，一笑而过，就好。
hehe....remember a phr:
雪中送炭，惜在真送炭。
祝福只是一份难得的心意。
虚无缥缈。
心意贵，贵在朋友急需的不是真炭的时候。
izzt really cOrrect???.....im tired.

当我们十年后再重逢，心中任是温暖，就是好朋友。不要忘记当年曾经深深爱过你的我，朋友。 暮然回首，才惊觉有些人，有些事，失去了就再也不可能回头了，所谓?覆水难收大概就是如此了。不珍惜当初所拥有的一切，使我失去了太多的感受和经验以及所有的我所爱的朋友。
在开口闭口间，我选择了沉默。以为可以挽回，殊不知这个世界永远人海茫茫。毕竟。终于明白，谁少了谁不可以活？？可是从此，后悔的感觉排山倒海。淹没我，翻覆过去。

went home from work...eyelids r so heavy to lock themselves....actuall today my work r too busy that there's no time to feel tired...feel sleEpy onli...wOke Up at 5pm....it's earlier than when im in school day,even...hehe...one thing only i glad was A called me in last min be4 3pm and made me awake a bit...when i walked out of company and saw Missed call showed in hp,cannt express how did i feel at tt time...haha...Surprised and touched ba...den...today is Sunday,today's salary is count regarding as overtime,tml still have to wake up early,tml nth to do...ya,tml i must to look for some comics and bOoks from bkshOp at pArkway there...there got alot of my fav bks...ok,tt's all le....sleepy.

bB.....nItEz.

Hihi....i finally come back my blog again le.....haha....these two days seemed getting so long and so slow tt as if it has 2 weeks past...hehe...miSs me ba?!!!...haha....i miSs all of you yA sOoooo much when im taking a rest!!!...haha.These day never online...found a job in Ang Mo Kio...find im stupid enough tat look for a job so far from my home...there are 1 hour distance between AMK and UBI alright??....hehe...speechless...hai...its abt a scan handphone job...there's nO chair to sit for us SO i stand working whole day....whole 8 hours can?!!!....OH my MAMA...haha....bt if give me a choice, i absolutely wont choose 2 work as fast food or what...BECAUSE those jobs r too tired no freedom as well and...I wouldn't face ppl ad talk to them in ENG!!haha...NOT BAD!!!.haha,anyway i bumped into nursia in there woking also today...today is her first day ba if im not wrong..haha...same company leh...haha.....sO coincidence hOR!HapPy.=]

Supposed to meet Jas and Xue...but it start raining...till now still havnt stop,even....den jas said tt i am always lk tat,nt on one....hehe...seems very angry hOr...im pologise here to U in public,jas and xue...sorry....as the matter of fact,its cant be controlled by me de alright??...hU crazy enough 2 go outdoor and have fun in a raining day,expecially shopping....which one is better,stay at home OR walk around under the rain??....Even though we have finished discussing on today,anything will be might change all of a sudden,so we have to learn when is a suitable time to change our plan lo....tat is what called ‘随机应变’。(dunO how to translate in english lA)....it's lk when everything around me got changed,den i have to change and accept them as well...=p...haha....rite??...haha

feel lonely as if no1 knows me in this world...hp in slience all day...alOne,alOne,alOne....wUu555......kK...stOp childish here...haha...woke up by my nainai rather early as usual...around 6.00am...walked to EunOs MRT 2 sell ticket....u know hows my english Oral delo....sO all i can reveal r embrass and tired!!!!..den back home,my deaR father gave me a number to interview....when lunch in half way,i immediately rushed out of home cOz i thought i was late...bt after reached Ang mo Kio and started found i made a huge mistake...hehe....i reached there earlier around 1 hour.....haha....everyone walk here walk there and saw me as if never saw...lk tat every1 ignor me....first time realised tat earning money is a not easy thing....haha.....haha....hAi~~~hai~~~

如果一个人在乎另一个人，那无论多困难的事，都会心甘情愿去做的。
如果一个人想念另一个人，那无论多遥远的距离，都是会找的到的。
我试了，发现，这是真的！！！无论友情还是爱情，都是一样的。可是，这个世界感情的事是永远不会平等的。先付出的人永远会觉得患得患失。所以先说‘我爱你’的人总是最痛苦。可是我总是笨到要死，永远是那个按捺不住先说‘喜欢’的人。就像白痴一样，无奈。不过，hehe...我还是觉得主动一点比较好，毕竟当自己知道自己在做什么的时候，会比较安心和脚踏实地吧。

Yesterday went to Jas's chalet...we spent a very happy moment there...hehe...den her sister asked her stay back and Jas ending finally agreed 2 overnight but i didn't want 2....conclution,Jas called her parents come her chalet and sent me back....haha...

Jas>>>haha...darling,i lOve yA... feel so touched after reciving ur message ytd night when i reached home... i just can FEEL what u mean behind each and every word u wrote. so yeah, i know what u mean and they're all truth...=]..*<.MuAcKs>*...HAHA...thank U sO much...dunt thank me 4 everything,cOz u r my gd friend,i cannt accept 2 leave u alone...kK
are you afraid of being alone?
cause i am,
im lost without you...=]....lOvE yA dEePlY!!!!!

A>>>thanks,tOo.

Pulled up by my mUm in the early morning...around 4.30am...sky at that time still was a full of black space,covered in cloud....air very fresh...haha...-_-'''...dunO how 2 describ...pOoR vocabulary... den we took 22 to 四马 Road 4 praying...stayed there till 9.00...went home...finished brkfast and asked mother if i would be allowed to outdoOr...hai...she disagreed of cOz...den i ignored her again of cOz ...bad child...-_-'''...out of home to take 51 meeting up Cindi in Geylang West CC...Cindi changed more pretty since last time we met up....it's been almost half yr already...both of us seemed very happy to joke each other like used to....but actually can feel there really were some v strange things between us....i know sO does she...suddenly become as if there are two different worlds between us...why?...who got change??....no hope to repeat 'dunt go changing,i love U juz the way U r!'...coz no1 would listen to me de...hai...sOri,i'm too selfish...hehe....sOri...i swear i would NOT repeat anymore.

WOW!!!...Jasline's birthday will come sOon!!!...but tOmOrrOw is hOliday...haha...sO luck tml is holiday....haha...thanks sO much u helpPing me save $$$...haha....sO happy....nO present...haha...congulation...haha....Oh,laugh too hard that feel tired a bit nw...hehe...nO lah,i brought of cOz...my goOd friend,my deaR lei...no reason come to meet U with two empty hands de alright!!!...haha....grew older lOl!!!!!!

嗟来之食，总是没有好事！！！

上次K请客，一直耿耿于怀，好像欠了她很多一样。要请回，可是她不知为何一直推托我，用尽各种理由不是吃饱了就是直接拒绝不去。K不去，我就没有再提请客的事，可是J 竟然一直酸我broke promise。Siao...有苦难言！some stuff like treasure不可以逼迫force，更不可能要我跪下来求她去吃一顿我付钱的饭。我又不追她。。。den反正就是她从没有一次接受我的请客的。理由嘛，就是怕我没钱。是啊，我家是很穷，穷到没钱买过一栋私人住宅！！！

spend these days to read <三国演义> again....feel lk i can understand further more...樊稠，李爵，郭犯的将军，因为帮助敌方的韩遂逃脱，而被他的主帅请去吃饭，然后就当场被乱刀砍死。。。

所以说，设宴款待，多数都有自己的目的。被请的人，不得不防！

start Miss friends le!!...hehe....lOVe yA!....kaR,you are bloody!!!

Lonely n 4gotten

U were there to comfort me..Every minute...every moment

u were there with me...

U were the best... a guy could ever have...

U cheered me up...turned my frown upside down...

Wanna let u know how great u are...

for just being who u are...making people happy...and not at all sappy...

Thks 4 all the care u've shown...

for all tat u've shared...

I LOVE YOU!!!

Even though i make a mistake now

i would not regret this fact in the futurn

A--->......let me see a while,what a suitable word can i say 2 yA?...hehe,well,thanks so much tt u said tt i am not 1 of 7 of them....but conclusion,what number i am??...NO. 8?...my class register number is 9...8 is belong to K de.....=p....den what is e difference between them and me??....hehe....watever i find,there is no main different ma....7 ge tai duo bu que wo yi ge....=p....hehe...how u know i am not 1 of them... you know how important these words 4 me?!....haha....clever la U anyway...know i reading,so dunt want 2 hurt me rit?....=]...thank you alot....sUan le,hehe....psycho...maybe i am right maybe not....but i won't regret anything what i siad,nvRat least till now....haha....tat's me...love yA...

竟然忘记以前的日子是怎么熬过来的。。。一想到以前，就不寒而瑟。。。突然觉得如果就算让我再活一次，回到过去，我也不要！！绝对！。。。昨天还跟XL说如果时间可以回去，我一定愿意从头开始活。。。没想到，只是1天，什么都变了，只剩下疲倦的无力感。。。好像再也没有回首往事的权利了。。。我前途茫茫。。。无奈。

hihi....today surely is my last day of secondary school le...before POA N exam to be end soon,i began feel despress all of a sudden....am i too childish??.... oringinal i was going to give @ a big hug, den when we walked out of hall,saw her was talking with Jr....of cOz no way to disrupt them,so i turn to talk with Jas and xt they all....unlucky,when i turned back again,she disappeared already....-_-'''.....without a 'see U'....hai....hehe...maybe its possible that she also turned head to look for me a while,and the problem is i didn't observe....haha....daydream a??....hehe....the more i think of e laughter we shared and the more i feel piss off....saying,天下没有不散的宴席。。。i understand this opinion,but i cant accept it....hehe...useless.

刚刚到家，10点多了，唉，累的不想再说话。突然闪过一个念头，决定记下来以免明早忘记。。。此类情况时有发生，不算奇怪。所以前车之鉴，不可忽视。

真的觉得他越来越像一个孩子。。。一个只会为了自己着想的孩子。。。虽然不会哭也不会无理取闹，但就是不像一个男人。。。没有安全感，不说保证，不习惯感动，不喜欢表达，更吝啬的不肯甜言蜜语。。。像足古代的男人一样木纳。。。只会偶尔关心他自己的家人，从不肯公开提及一下朋友，问候关心一下他们。。。总是提醒一句才会明白一句，可是俗话说，教出来的东西是臭的。就是如此了。。。大男人主义，永远不肯放下一点尊严多问一声。。。和一个孩子相处很累很累。。。说他是君子又缺很多，说是男孩却已经长大，说男人又真的明明差一截。。。男孩的单纯固执他有了，可是男人的细心沉稳温柔他一样都没有。。。要他温柔体贴？。。。叫他去跳楼还比较快！！！

我说的是谁？。。。PLS lOh，都这么清楚了还敢问？当然是你啦，我亲爱的表哥大人！。。。拜托你温柔一点啦，这么大男人，难怪奕奕她会和你分手。。。哈哈。。。＝p....最后一句，男人先说sorry,不会死的啦！！！。。。切记。BB。保重。i love ya.=D

知己零落，实属常事，不应太过伤感。可是这几天总觉得自己一直在自暴自弃，时间快的让人措手不及。想到离别，就好像又是一个世纪要过去了。无奈。今天的朋友明天就是陌路人。又是一场梦。没有勇气去想象未来。想起一句话：
‘纵有千古， 横有八方，前途似海，来日方长。’
是啊，前途似海，来日方长。

以前的日子，刚到新，不觉新鲜，只想留意身旁的人怎么做怎么说，照着样子画葫芦，学他们的一举一动。一切从头开始，坦白说，有点累。不想说话，总觉的每个人都在嘲笑。其实后来才发现那时不说话也很好，不与人接触就没有so-call是非，自由自在。有人问我话，我不是摇头就是点头，很轻松，一幅理所当然的样子，反正拿‘我听不懂’当借口，你管我？？

先是认识Denise,那段省略，不提。说来话长。哈哈。。。然后碰上@和Jas.....第一次跟她们去canteen，一边看着她们两个人说的滔滔不绝，一边静静地学着她们的发音和英语，一语不发。突然Jas笑笑问我为什么不说话，我如实说，我在学你们说话。K不解地说：‘为什么要学？我们不介意你。’我一笑置之，不喜欢多作解释，觉得麻烦而且那个时候也不很了解她们，实则不知道该怎么解释。最简单的一个理由就是，入乡随俗。

再认识xiaoting,xueting,meichen，是我史料未及的。很奇怪的感觉，以前一个人的日子突然变成有了有一大群的人在身边，嘻笑，不习惯先，自卑感在后。哈哈。。。不知道Mc你还记得一件事吗？有一次我们6个人上楼，因为我走第一个，所以先看见楼梯的铁门是关住的。于是我就突然转身，一句话也没有说也没有表情，只是用手很用力地推你们离开。@走过去看，说：‘喔，门关住。转身，我们走另外一边上去。’那时Mc的表情最深刻，很可爱，一种不思其解又像很奇怪的看住我。哈哈。。。可能她很奇怪为什么我不说话告诉她们门关住，而只是默默地推她们。。。现在想来是因为那个时候不爱说话吧。因为她的表情，不知道为什么，我突然觉得我必须开口说话了。无论有没有人笑。

during March,there were many things happen...i was desperating 2 learn english sO that i can communicating with him well....den at that time,thank to him,my english suddenly improve rapidly....at the same time,thank to myself,my Chinese result dropped down so fast till i can go to hell travelling a while....Conclusion,nth lo....den feel very stupid,so decide contiue learning my english...next...forgot le

ok,den i found my life changed...my attitude started change...i become dare to be happy...make myself happy and find as long as my friends stay happy,i would feel happier...Really,really cherish my friendship bewteen them....ya,A surely is a good man,indeed!...beyong words...haha....i love you so much!!!darling....MuAcK*=D.....but anyway i know you wouldn't mind de....hehe....seldom say 'take care' 2 me....two words only also lazy to say say....haiyO...blOody la...haha....jk....

As if too long le,rite?....hehe.....okok...88....take care,my friends!!!....end of paper.

lalala....N finish soon...Monday is our last paper---POA....i got confidence on this subject....cOz someone said not very difficult ,actually....that particular one is who?? Jr of cOz la....Em...give you my three line...-_-'''....my gOd....hehe....he always like that..ci guan jiu hao...lk today when Math paper ended,he immediately said:'quite easy right??haiyO,i want to cry liao,waste my time,hai'....faint...haha...funny lO...真想好好扁他一顿....haha...hai,later K's heart break into piece,as my hand pain...haha...so,suan le,suan le....hehe...jk... Well,dunno where will i place next year....if i leave sec and go to ITE,miss me,can??...but duno cry too hard hOr,coz i no money to buy tiuss for U....ok?...haha....okok...gone...take care..lOvE yA.

darling,i said no longer got chance to call you darling again le....see,how clever am i!!!.....today is last day...there is really no chance face to face say le....*sigh*...=p.....sO sad...want to cry....em,cry for you la,no chance to hear....=p....haha..jk....and,nO more le...take care of urself!!!!...happy holiday!!!

Finally decide that i am not going to delete this blog....i won't...NeVeR... although i never spend too much time to design its skin,i need it and love so much throughout.... after all it has existed too much emotion inside.. ..they are too much to forget in ease...yes,.i am no courage to forget everything........it belongs to me but not who else,after all...if i don't cherish it who would cherish for??....and,i decide go back my own language,which no1 can understand enough.....haha....fan zheng ye mei you ren hui zai hu......=]..that's all.

Halo,i help all of you improving your 'great' mother tongue,ok?......so,start thank me gratefully ba!!!...see me so understanding!!..touched ba??.....haha....sOsO la......;>....gd luck!

tingting (not xiaoting)....haha...竟然一早CALL ME。。。听她闷闷地诉说她的生活时，我突然觉得自己是多么幸运。。。除了小时候爸妈很少在身边，我什么都过的很好。有时觉得孤独，但我还有爷爷奶奶的照顾，爸妈每月送钱，我就从小到大衣食无忧，锦衣丰实。从来没有挫折永远好像不食人间疾苦的样子，不很明白快乐因为没经历过痛苦。以前矮矮的，所以每个人朋友或者长辈都喜欢摸我的头一下，温柔地说：你很幸福，有个这么好的家。。。我笑笑口中说谢谢，心里就想，好什么好？爸爸妈妈都不在，有什么好？？。。。现在长大了，突然明白了很多，其实，真的，我很幸福，我是一直活在象牙塔中的人。

tingting在PUB 的工作不顺利，这是意料中的事。这种风月场所，她怎么会快乐？？。。。我不知道该说什么，拿着电话停了很久，最后我才吐出一句：玉婷，不要做了。辞掉这个工作。
她笑：‘你说的容易，你明白什么？大小姐，辞掉工作我喝西北风啊？’
‘酒店也可以’
‘PUB 好赚。一个月最多3500哦！’
‘那有什么用？现在的你不快乐。’
‘呵呵，快乐值多少钱？你的日子活的太幸福了。’
‘。。。。。。’我无言。
常言女孩进了社会都会变，现在我相信了。钱不是万能的，但没钱是万万不能的。

我的运气很好，生在一个什么都有的环境中，而她们，出淤泥染了一身的泥，最后坠入风尘。如果将我也生在她们的处境中，可以想象我不及她们的一半！！

dunt want posting this blog in english again... it cannot make me express what i feel in correctly......and on the other hand,when K said tt she seldom read blog,i felt sth deep inside all of a sudden start losting. ...tat feeling,beyong express....suddenly this blog seemed become empty and meaningless for me at that time.....now recall still feel worthless as same as before.

consider if should I delete it??....Maybe ba.

N level of english over today.....i have done my very best...but realize tt language is not a subject which can pass over one overnight ...i unable to help it if i never through once....exam hour for me is juz enough....no extra time to check...my hand writting were written in paper can fly le i think... very Luan......wonder if markers can got understand a not......

A-->have to state that i confirm failing eng le.....ask so many,den still got fail....hehe...i faint.. pologise 1st...so when you receive ur hp bill,dunt send to me hOr!!!cOz i aso wish to pass de ma.....sori..haiyO...waste your time to teach and waste my time to learn as well.....haha...hai...heart aching....sUan le.....my gratitude more than i can say....haha....sOri,thanks so...haha..lOve ya...hapPy4eveR

Wat is Love?...

Love someone is to being hurt or let ppl hurt...

So dun fall in love..

.If U r to choose to go back to the past...

Will u still get involve in Love?..

(copy from kelkel)

.

.

Em....my answer is...

I will , still

after all i decided to attempt never regretting everything what i have done.....

And.

I did

.

.

Failed my prelim exam,badly....keke...nO confidence on my coming exam anymore...i somehow have tried my best to study eng alridy in any way,then the result of the Exam still failed...-_-'''.....what else can i say??...sO stupid la!!!!!......hai....sUan le...mUst go to sec 5 onli but no other choice...cOz i dunt want to leave my friend beside...have to go up......okok....let me see,if MT get A1;MATH get A2,POA just pass juz enough le...1 plus 2 plus 5...less 10...haha...sO eng is the most main problom for me...utmost one....hai...i can pass eng??...daydream...eM....life my dream,no dream no hope at all...add oil..haha...88

haha.....nOthing to say...stay at home and memory my compo....i arrange to learn and recite 3 title of composition including:
'A career i admire OR The career that i would lk to take up'
'A person i admire'
'An unforgettable incident'
there is one of these three title would be appear in N i guess...i mean if i'm very lucky de hua..it's time to start praying......i gone....

ya....call him Darling...then he sounds like v shou bu liao...ok la.....Call me boring can??.....haha....done.

在一定意义范围内，最失败最痛苦的，永远是那个先说出‘我喜欢你’的人。付出过了，就提不起更放不下，永远只会在原地徘徊，永远守住一个自己所谓的希望，看不出去也充耳不闻。How hard to bump into a right person in a right place at a right time!!!
明明很爱你，
因为害怕更爱你，
所以不敢再靠进。
算了，
暗示竟然到了无法挽回的地步，只剩逃避的眼神，是我的失败。
算了。是福不是祸，是祸躲不过。
不是你的就永远不是，勉强没有幸福。我朋友说的。
以前曾doubt，现在不得不相信了。
是啊，算了，是福不是祸，是祸躲不过。
Lastly,the only thing i can say is....I LOVE YOU,really!.....after all.

Read a sentense from somewhere and they make me want to cry......
"Am i the only person who feels like this?? Chiledren never look back---not until they are irrevocably adult anyway.Even other adults don't appear to care as much,but,in fact,they do mind....i swore i'd savour the growing-up process with her,but once i was aware of the speed of chang,it seemed to happen even faster....No sooner had she arrived than she change."
"One day she was a baby,the next she wasn't. One day she crawled,the next sah walked. One day she couldn't speak,the next she couldn't stop......"
'dunt grow up,'I told her.'stay here awhile'....but i know that before i can say 'pierced ears' she'll be going to nightclubs......"
Associating with my parents in thinking.......am i a good child for them??...aren't they also feel sad as they want me stay awhile but i move along in front of them??.....they care me ma?..they love me ma? and how many??...i would not like to change anyway,but i have to....this world no support me keeping myself....it's sUcks!!!I'm sUckS!!!!.....IT'S BLOODY,I'M STUPID.......Nothing ca nmake you feel so old as being my parents...

Feel every ppl hu was around my side got changing already.....neither their character nor appearance are as same as before....unlike me,maybe suffered ups and downs le ba....even though i have been asking me to make understanding over changing,unfortunately,i still don't stand it.... speed is too fast alright.....i wouldn't deny that i am depressing now....lOve that former you with a sense of scurity as well as a little innocent inside.....em...SuCkS!!!!!!!.....sorry....yes,how selfish a ppl like me!!!..... hold handphone on hand,tightly....then short time pass,i put it down again,lightly....hehe....dunt think it's a stupid action?!!!!....hehe...suan le.....without me,there also are others would SMS them in this world i know....hehe......NVM......happy4ever.......5131421

Math paper 1 no enough time to do for me....damn hurry....mh...read the meaning of the qns till blur.....after finish 1,feel extremely piss off by it.....all my friends said easy till siaO...hai...i am a stupid 1 to e core....go down to canteen with friends and den tell myself tt have to take back confidence on,coz still got paper 2,that's ok ect....den juz feel better le...joking and laugh till next exam started again....far from my expect,paper 2 damn easy,left alot of time to check and den sleep....haha....no difficult words to disrupt me....so lucky....=D

found a definition of friends....more expansive.....'True friends are the ones who never leave your heart,even if they leave your life for a while. Even after years apart,you pick up with them right where you left off,and even if they die,they're never dead in your heart'....very touched by these phs...suddenly start missing my former friends so much....even though we now are not as close as before,even it's hard to bump into each other in the futher,i still can feel that i think of them in this moment.... in the past,so proud to say tat i have some great ppls such as FENG and YUTING as my friends in my life....in the present,find there are,out of my opinion,more greater friends in this world that be able to change my attitude and even unconditional trust me at times....feel happiness....i would always remember:we are friend,after all,no matter what happen....=]....love ya!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Couldn't image taking e school day without K... but maybe it's just for image,if it become true one day...i mean IF,even though i clear that that day certainly would come after all....i would still keep on living...no choose but have to ba....just won't have as same as the days be4....don't know why i can feel that i won't find a friend who would unconditional trust me,so am i,and care for and even totally understand me,so am i, like her again in the future......always believe that there is a chance only to look for an unique true friend in our short life...like you unable to find a lover as same as that ex- you deeply loved earier on... not being impossible but for it's very hard.....so almost near by impossible.....to me,friendship is equal to relationship at times.....hehe....sometimes i am crazy one.....almost hard to believe a ppl,but after accept to believe,juz start become hard to put him or her down in time....hehe....ohmygod.....start feeling down... -_-'''....must start to learn living alone le..ok,that's all

these days seldom talk with Xt,xue,jas and mc....laugh a while and then suddenly feel pissing off without reason,then shut mouth up at once lo....Next week start N prelim exam,first subject is Math which is one i got confidence on a bit....
follow are Geo, phy/chem, POA.....dOnE!!!

明明很爱你：
梁： 有多少人在旁边 我们都视而不见彼此却忍不住多看几眼
感觉强烈已经微笑的放电 已经暗示到极限
没勇气的人犹豫的瞬间 幸福就飘过眼前
品： 我平凡无奇 而你像灿烂星星让我担心*
合： 明明很爱你 明明想靠近*
但是你的身边游人同花总是拥挤
我凭什么意义打败情敌 很大声说要做你的唯一（梁：我的唯一）

明明很爱你 明明想靠近
为什么还要在浪费时间能把你抱紧 用真心 才是最厉害的武器
我会拼命让你更满意

梁： 讲背不背叛足迹 说爱不爱要温习
爱有我们自己决定不必避别拖谁的眼睛

Sometimes We just don't appreciate those people who really care for us
Until they leave us
Until we lose them
Then we regret
Outer beauty doesn't matter; it's the inner one that the person who is e same cca as u but had seldom seen each other...
a person whom u just walk past since last yr..
but things had change when there r event held n u started to know e person....
u intent to smile at the person when she/he looks at u...
the person will thought who u r smiling at...but just ignore...
both of u r in e same committee...both of u nv talk...u r playin ur instrument while sir is conductin....
he/she is standing infront of u...both will try to look at each other but afraid to..
u smile n stay happy when u walk pass a friend n a wide smile tt brought u infront of him/her....
u r studyin in one class n his/her class is infront of urs...u will always get 2 look out of ur window to see where he/she is when bell rang...
sometimes u will get to see that person n both of u look at each other or maybe just pretend....
time pass n both of u starts to talk to each other abt a small matter...but stop talkin when with peers....
a group of friends r singing n u starts to sit down besides them...a song tt ur favourite singer sang...u smile n she/he smile too...both kept lookin at each other but pretend tt both r just friends...=]

believe it anot...a famous story by famous couple of band...start tellin e person u like now before he/she starts to change schools or something...

Watch Movie called 'HerO',produced by XuKe, during the MT period...bery wonderful sIa... always proud of these type of movies,perhaps becasue of the way of their expression and 一种沧海桑田的孤寂感 they show me.....such as '卧虎藏龙' and lastest one '十面埋伏'...also is a not bad one i feel.....very roman and deep......。。。....don't understand how come don't have a friend of mine is capable of appreciating and sincerely loving them.... Xt said it's extremely boring to the MaX,xue also......hehe.....Em....sUan le la.....haha.....maybe there are some different viewpoints and taste between them and me i guess....hehe....Nvm.....being what and who you are,but not to be a person whom others want you to be......recognise that myslef love it just enough ok?!!!!!.....haha....kK....gone.

Today's mood not bad.........^__^....happy4ever!!!!

Now only there is S's story fill in my mind....Suddenly wish to be a professional reporter so that i am able to instantly write down them for her,wit h colourful words.....as same as the feeling of longing to be an excellent artist for him earlier on....how many years have passed after you fighting with Zhangming?..4 years le ba??.....hehe....光阴似箭。。。。it seems yesterday...年年岁岁花相似，岁岁年年人不同。。。我感叹的是：楼台依旧，芳草依旧，天涯依旧，而故人以逝，青春以逝，物是人非的沧桑变故。。。。。唉~~~~~~

English prelim paper 2 take back today....22 marks.....Summary got 11 over 20...just pass...but still feel better than i expected..at least i tried my best to do it...ya....hehe...keep adding oil.....hehe...gtg....88

start to believe.......
Never explain!!!!!
True friends don't need it and your enemies won't believe you anyway!!!!
Oh,finally learnt an important lesson from you.......sincerely thank you for teaching your great point to me so much...it help me to instantly realise some things in the end...hope it's not too late to recover them.... I am sucks!

hehe,these day force myself to forget him in any possible way....focus in hardworking.....read essay till fall asleep........ and go outdoor walking around without purpose....As e result,i still fail to persist it and sms him in the end.......Em.....haha.....Really,actually i am happy that i never make a decision to move on....hehe.....stupid am i!!!!!!

A>>>haha....i promise you here that i would read your blog everyday as long as you got post each day and give you a comment per week....if i'm got free....haha...ok??.....but it's very hard to get a free time for both of us ba i guess....haha.=p

Got go chemistry remidal,as @ called me yesterday and asked whether i could got go tml...dunO y i replied her Yes!!!.....haha.....then today nO idea but have to visit.....i'm the second one reached there,Ziliang was the first 1....den later,i found lucky i got go,haha....very happy during the lesson.....got alot of laughter with K....time were flying...pOor thing @ seldom learnt something from entire remid....haha....
Anyway,who know what does一颦一笑胜过千言万语 look like?...haha...today jr funny sia,said byebye to K when they r going to seperate in sch gate,he turn head and then 笑得一脸的温柔。。。Ohmygod!!....finally a...haha....so great sIa tat cause me feel jealous at tt time....i turn to @ and laughed with her,she smiled back with 一脸的舒适自然。。。haha....later went to busstop,den so does A ....mygod again!!....haha....thanks 4 saying your bye 2 me,nice ya!!.....=]

Finally received my cheque of newspaper today....$16 only....the most cheap fee i received...hehe.....but Nvm,still feel very excited....my own income alright....kk....tt's all

K>>>The dearest truth friend of mine,t h a n k y o u sO m u c h tt always stand by my side and to be my ear patiently...some things not your business e.g him or her or them, you still would entertain to listen and enjoy it...oh,i proud of you deeply!!!...every words you said for me really touch my heart where no1 can touch till now can!!!....Last of all i want to say is...I LOVE YOU!!!!...haha.(hUgzz)

Today is my dear mother's birthday!!....haha.....Happy birthday to my Mum!!!!........ Happy birthday to You!!!!!.....this week no school so good that i can save $ to buy a cake for her.....morning go downstair and buy a fruit cake (16.95)and a bdy card(1.5).... tt cake not very big....juz enough for 4 of us to enjoy it....and den my mum very funny.....her mouth softly scold me:'no need,no need,i don't like eat cake...too fat you know..i'm dietting now.',but her face with a big and sweet smile tell me tat she is touching.....haha......sO happy.....my mum is a person who suitable for feeling how we are but not saying.....

Afternoon,slp from 2pm to 4pm....whole 2 hours....oh.mygod....pig lah....-_-'''....dunO how come would feel such exhaused these day....maybe tat 1 come ba....hehe......kK...88