Wat is Love?...

Love someone is to being hurt or let ppl hurt...

So dun fall in love..

.If U r to choose to go back to the past...

Will u still get involve in Love?..

(copy from kelkel)

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Em....my answer is...

I will , still

after all i decided to attempt never regretting everything what i have done.....

And.

I did

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Failed my prelim exam,badly....keke...nO confidence on my coming exam anymore...i somehow have tried my best to study eng alridy in any way,then the result of the Exam still failed...-_-'''.....what else can i say??...sO stupid la!!!!!......hai....sUan le...mUst go to sec 5 onli but no other choice...cOz i dunt want to leave my friend beside...have to go up......okok....let me see,if MT get A1;MATH get A2,POA just pass juz enough le...1 plus 2 plus 5...less 10...haha...sO eng is the most main problom for me...utmost one....hai...i can pass eng??...daydream...eM....life my dream,no dream no hope at all...add oil..haha...88

haha.....nOthing to say...stay at home and memory my compo....i arrange to learn and recite 3 title of composition including:
'A career i admire OR The career that i would lk to take up'
'A person i admire'
'An unforgettable incident'
there is one of these three title would be appear in N i guess...i mean if i'm very lucky de hua..it's time to start praying......i gone....

ya....call him Darling...then he sounds like v shou bu liao...ok la.....Call me boring can??.....haha....done.

在一定意义范围内，最失败最痛苦的，永远是那个先说出‘我喜欢你’的人。付出过了，就提不起更放不下，永远只会在原地徘徊，永远守住一个自己所谓的希望，看不出去也充耳不闻。How hard to bump into a right person in a right place at a right time!!!
明明很爱你，
因为害怕更爱你，
所以不敢再靠进。
算了，
暗示竟然到了无法挽回的地步，只剩逃避的眼神，是我的失败。
算了。是福不是祸，是祸躲不过。
不是你的就永远不是，勉强没有幸福。我朋友说的。
以前曾doubt，现在不得不相信了。
是啊，算了，是福不是祸，是祸躲不过。
Lastly,the only thing i can say is....I LOVE YOU,really!.....after all.

Read a sentense from somewhere and they make me want to cry......
"Am i the only person who feels like this?? Chiledren never look back---not until they are irrevocably adult anyway.Even other adults don't appear to care as much,but,in fact,they do mind....i swore i'd savour the growing-up process with her,but once i was aware of the speed of chang,it seemed to happen even faster....No sooner had she arrived than she change."
"One day she was a baby,the next she wasn't. One day she crawled,the next sah walked. One day she couldn't speak,the next she couldn't stop......"
'dunt grow up,'I told her.'stay here awhile'....but i know that before i can say 'pierced ears' she'll be going to nightclubs......"
Associating with my parents in thinking.......am i a good child for them??...aren't they also feel sad as they want me stay awhile but i move along in front of them??.....they care me ma?..they love me ma? and how many??...i would not like to change anyway,but i have to....this world no support me keeping myself....it's sUcks!!!I'm sUckS!!!!.....IT'S BLOODY,I'M STUPID.......Nothing ca nmake you feel so old as being my parents...

Feel every ppl hu was around my side got changing already.....neither their character nor appearance are as same as before....unlike me,maybe suffered ups and downs le ba....even though i have been asking me to make understanding over changing,unfortunately,i still don't stand it.... speed is too fast alright.....i wouldn't deny that i am depressing now....lOve that former you with a sense of scurity as well as a little innocent inside.....em...SuCkS!!!!!!!.....sorry....yes,how selfish a ppl like me!!!..... hold handphone on hand,tightly....then short time pass,i put it down again,lightly....hehe....dunt think it's a stupid action?!!!!....hehe...suan le.....without me,there also are others would SMS them in this world i know....hehe......NVM......happy4ever.......5131421

Math paper 1 no enough time to do for me....damn hurry....mh...read the meaning of the qns till blur.....after finish 1,feel extremely piss off by it.....all my friends said easy till siaO...hai...i am a stupid 1 to e core....go down to canteen with friends and den tell myself tt have to take back confidence on,coz still got paper 2,that's ok ect....den juz feel better le...joking and laugh till next exam started again....far from my expect,paper 2 damn easy,left alot of time to check and den sleep....haha....no difficult words to disrupt me....so lucky....=D

found a definition of friends....more expansive.....'True friends are the ones who never leave your heart,even if they leave your life for a while. Even after years apart,you pick up with them right where you left off,and even if they die,they're never dead in your heart'....very touched by these phs...suddenly start missing my former friends so much....even though we now are not as close as before,even it's hard to bump into each other in the futher,i still can feel that i think of them in this moment.... in the past,so proud to say tat i have some great ppls such as FENG and YUTING as my friends in my life....in the present,find there are,out of my opinion,more greater friends in this world that be able to change my attitude and even unconditional trust me at times....feel happiness....i would always remember:we are friend,after all,no matter what happen....=]....love ya!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Couldn't image taking e school day without K... but maybe it's just for image,if it become true one day...i mean IF,even though i clear that that day certainly would come after all....i would still keep on living...no choose but have to ba....just won't have as same as the days be4....don't know why i can feel that i won't find a friend who would unconditional trust me,so am i,and care for and even totally understand me,so am i, like her again in the future......always believe that there is a chance only to look for an unique true friend in our short life...like you unable to find a lover as same as that ex- you deeply loved earier on... not being impossible but for it's very hard.....so almost near by impossible.....to me,friendship is equal to relationship at times.....hehe....sometimes i am crazy one.....almost hard to believe a ppl,but after accept to believe,juz start become hard to put him or her down in time....hehe....ohmygod.....start feeling down... -_-'''....must start to learn living alone le..ok,that's all

these days seldom talk with Xt,xue,jas and mc....laugh a while and then suddenly feel pissing off without reason,then shut mouth up at once lo....Next week start N prelim exam,first subject is Math which is one i got confidence on a bit....
follow are Geo, phy/chem, POA.....dOnE!!!

明明很爱你：
梁： 有多少人在旁边 我们都视而不见彼此却忍不住多看几眼
感觉强烈已经微笑的放电 已经暗示到极限
没勇气的人犹豫的瞬间 幸福就飘过眼前
品： 我平凡无奇 而你像灿烂星星让我担心*
合： 明明很爱你 明明想靠近*
但是你的身边游人同花总是拥挤
我凭什么意义打败情敌 很大声说要做你的唯一（梁：我的唯一）

明明很爱你 明明想靠近
为什么还要在浪费时间能把你抱紧 用真心 才是最厉害的武器
我会拼命让你更满意

梁： 讲背不背叛足迹 说爱不爱要温习
爱有我们自己决定不必避别拖谁的眼睛

Sometimes We just don't appreciate those people who really care for us
Until they leave us
Until we lose them
Then we regret
Outer beauty doesn't matter; it's the inner one that the person who is e same cca as u but had seldom seen each other...
a person whom u just walk past since last yr..
but things had change when there r event held n u started to know e person....
u intent to smile at the person when she/he looks at u...
the person will thought who u r smiling at...but just ignore...
both of u r in e same committee...both of u nv talk...u r playin ur instrument while sir is conductin....
he/she is standing infront of u...both will try to look at each other but afraid to..
u smile n stay happy when u walk pass a friend n a wide smile tt brought u infront of him/her....
u r studyin in one class n his/her class is infront of urs...u will always get 2 look out of ur window to see where he/she is when bell rang...
sometimes u will get to see that person n both of u look at each other or maybe just pretend....
time pass n both of u starts to talk to each other abt a small matter...but stop talkin when with peers....
a group of friends r singing n u starts to sit down besides them...a song tt ur favourite singer sang...u smile n she/he smile too...both kept lookin at each other but pretend tt both r just friends...=]

believe it anot...a famous story by famous couple of band...start tellin e person u like now before he/she starts to change schools or something...

Watch Movie called 'HerO',produced by XuKe, during the MT period...bery wonderful sIa... always proud of these type of movies,perhaps becasue of the way of their expression and 一种沧海桑田的孤寂感 they show me.....such as '卧虎藏龙' and lastest one '十面埋伏'...also is a not bad one i feel.....very roman and deep......。。。....don't understand how come don't have a friend of mine is capable of appreciating and sincerely loving them.... Xt said it's extremely boring to the MaX,xue also......hehe.....Em....sUan le la.....haha.....maybe there are some different viewpoints and taste between them and me i guess....hehe....Nvm.....being what and who you are,but not to be a person whom others want you to be......recognise that myslef love it just enough ok?!!!!!.....haha....kK....gone.

Today's mood not bad.........^__^....happy4ever!!!!

Now only there is S's story fill in my mind....Suddenly wish to be a professional reporter so that i am able to instantly write down them for her,wit h colourful words.....as same as the feeling of longing to be an excellent artist for him earlier on....how many years have passed after you fighting with Zhangming?..4 years le ba??.....hehe....光阴似箭。。。。it seems yesterday...年年岁岁花相似，岁岁年年人不同。。。我感叹的是：楼台依旧，芳草依旧，天涯依旧，而故人以逝，青春以逝，物是人非的沧桑变故。。。。。唉~~~~~~

English prelim paper 2 take back today....22 marks.....Summary got 11 over 20...just pass...but still feel better than i expected..at least i tried my best to do it...ya....hehe...keep adding oil.....hehe...gtg....88

start to believe.......
Never explain!!!!!
True friends don't need it and your enemies won't believe you anyway!!!!
Oh,finally learnt an important lesson from you.......sincerely thank you for teaching your great point to me so much...it help me to instantly realise some things in the end...hope it's not too late to recover them.... I am sucks!

hehe,these day force myself to forget him in any possible way....focus in hardworking.....read essay till fall asleep........ and go outdoor walking around without purpose....As e result,i still fail to persist it and sms him in the end.......Em.....haha.....Really,actually i am happy that i never make a decision to move on....hehe.....stupid am i!!!!!!

A>>>haha....i promise you here that i would read your blog everyday as long as you got post each day and give you a comment per week....if i'm got free....haha...ok??.....but it's very hard to get a free time for both of us ba i guess....haha.=p

Got go chemistry remidal,as @ called me yesterday and asked whether i could got go tml...dunO y i replied her Yes!!!.....haha.....then today nO idea but have to visit.....i'm the second one reached there,Ziliang was the first 1....den later,i found lucky i got go,haha....very happy during the lesson.....got alot of laughter with K....time were flying...pOor thing @ seldom learnt something from entire remid....haha....
Anyway,who know what does一颦一笑胜过千言万语 look like?...haha...today jr funny sia,said byebye to K when they r going to seperate in sch gate,he turn head and then 笑得一脸的温柔。。。Ohmygod!!....finally a...haha....so great sIa tat cause me feel jealous at tt time....i turn to @ and laughed with her,she smiled back with 一脸的舒适自然。。。haha....later went to busstop,den so does A ....mygod again!!....haha....thanks 4 saying your bye 2 me,nice ya!!.....=]

Finally received my cheque of newspaper today....$16 only....the most cheap fee i received...hehe.....but Nvm,still feel very excited....my own income alright....kk....tt's all

K>>>The dearest truth friend of mine,t h a n k y o u sO m u c h tt always stand by my side and to be my ear patiently...some things not your business e.g him or her or them, you still would entertain to listen and enjoy it...oh,i proud of you deeply!!!...every words you said for me really touch my heart where no1 can touch till now can!!!....Last of all i want to say is...I LOVE YOU!!!!...haha.(hUgzz)

Today is my dear mother's birthday!!....haha.....Happy birthday to my Mum!!!!........ Happy birthday to You!!!!!.....this week no school so good that i can save $ to buy a cake for her.....morning go downstair and buy a fruit cake (16.95)and a bdy card(1.5).... tt cake not very big....juz enough for 4 of us to enjoy it....and den my mum very funny.....her mouth softly scold me:'no need,no need,i don't like eat cake...too fat you know..i'm dietting now.',but her face with a big and sweet smile tell me tat she is touching.....haha......sO happy.....my mum is a person who suitable for feeling how we are but not saying.....

Afternoon,slp from 2pm to 4pm....whole 2 hours....oh.mygod....pig lah....-_-'''....dunO how come would feel such exhaused these day....maybe tat 1 come ba....hehe......kK...88

Social study N level...i left almost half paper in vain...those marker will be mad when they mark my answer i guess...how pOor thing they are...i pray 4 5 minutes for them...dunO enough anot...hai...=p...okok,seriously,anyway,my classmates suddenly become very friendly today...after Ivon said he observed me seldom got write and my speed of writing very slow...den guess what?...they started comfort me tt dunt too sad...hehe...thanks very much...But...hehe...i juz cant feel any touch until i saw them......
when Ivon laughed with half joke:'haha,you die liao la...hai',I juz smiled and said Ya,i know but never mind.
when Douglas helped me to count how many marks can i score,I smiled back,too...want to say thanks but ending never.
lastly when Andrew said:'nvm,u go learn Geogh harder.' and told me how to take and pass N,i also smiled quietly at him...nodded only...thankfully opened mouth a while and then closed,without a word...juz dunt want 2 say anything lo...duno y...There is no much expression on my face till saw @ and A went over and asked me how's exam...haha...den i finally took unknown something back inside and shouted:'oh,my god!...wolAo..i die liao,never do Section B can!!!'....-_-"''..haha...what a strange!!!...haha...sIaO...Anyway,thanks so much 3 of you,best wish!!!

Chi N level exam.......remind me a lot of free time 2 sleep........juz can get over 70 ba?!!!!....dunO....hOpe so.....only Mt got confidence to pass....Answer Booklet no idea to fail ma.....rit?...hehe.....and can feel a little bit needed.......Em....how a stupid thing!!!!...tomorrow is SS....haha...never take a hope to pass it.....seldom see me pass this subjuect usually excpet i copy from others there.....juz pass just can make me happy for a long time le.....

After Paper 1 and 2,6 of us starting duno where we go and walked around,den finally decided into Pizza Hut using lunch....but v hurry cOz we thought we would late for Listening....ending brought Pizza away to school....finished them in sch canteen after exam.....hehe....i done.

Oh,mygod....Finally bump into Tomato in QQ.....have been looking for him for 3 yrs after i left shanghai alright...so it's hard to express my excitement at tt moment....my god....he become more handsome and mature le....so happy he turn older as well....lalala....but still beri 臭屁 can。。. he left a message in my QQ,said:'I MISS YOU SO MUCH....CAI GUAI（才怪)impossible...don't always make daydream la otherwise your brain would hang again!!!!'......-_-""...what a damn lame bloody boring guy!!!!....haha...know each other over eight years already....8 years lei....hehe....so touching....当我们十年后再重逢，心中任是温暖，就是好朋友。不要忘记当年曾经深深爱过你的我，朋友。Never ever say give up!!! 曾经在开口闭口间，我选择了沉默。然后以为可以挽回，殊不知这个世界永远人海茫茫！失去了想要再回首，就永远是只剩物是人非的沧桑变故了。。。.den it was my first time 2 recognise what is the main diffierence between us when we talked about the memories we shared in the past.....that is....he is male,i am female la.....what a simple Ans!!!!!!....The history of him i know for me would never change.....a joker hu likes 2 act funny in front of ppl and act cool when he is alone...always looked like down....prefer to punch his head non-stop and hurt himself......Oh,my deskmate,my friend,my big brother,whatever U will become,i will always take the warmest blessedness for you and support you......Lu,I LOVE YOU......Cai guai!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.

These days were too busy and tired to post my blog here.....i am shamful to recall tt i said i would update it everyday for improving my poOr english before....but in the end,i broke my promise.....Haix......always be used 2 put a smile on the face evry moment even when i feel down.....my mood not bad,but juz feel sleepy as well in the class..... @ looked like very exhaused and slept for 2 first periods in the morning,almost....and there is a funny and unwritten rule between us: when she falls asleep,i have 2 be clear-headed....so does she while i am sleeping in e class.....haha....cOz i would feel scary when both of us all fall asleep without a little bit alert to watch those flied rubbish and teachers....there is no a sense of security lo,after all, when no1 watches the surrounding of us.......any unknown thing would happen in every second.....hu knows?.....hehe......den we talk less lo,but still feel filling peaceful and happy......一切尽在不言中。。。有时心的距离是不可以用任何语言去衡量的，I 觉得。深奥吧？？！！！！！。。。。哈哈。。。。talent lA!!!!!!

Today that bla bla day,we brought coupons 2 downstairs,in canteen,and ate air there....school regard we,upper sec students,as invisible or so slim that no need 2 eat anything....haha....but ending i finished spending my $4 over there...haha....duno how come de....den 4 of them,Jas,Xueting,Xiaoting and Mc,the gross amount of their coupons they left are $13+.....haha....

today is my first time to join Chi remi after school......Em......ok Lah....doing exercise paper and Mr Cai,repeated how to write letter writing 4 us.....Not bad la,after all....he is a good teacher but juz is too kind 2 teach students lk us......haiX....pOor thing lO i guess!