chatting with Ka and jas in msn for age after back home...spent alot of time with them along,finally..haha.....seems lk their holiday get not bad...haha...tt's so good!haha....love ya!!

miss you sOooo much!

these days use my own salaries 2 shoppin feeling so great!!!!!haha.

CORRECT: actually i work everyday for myself,in order to earn money with my own hand.
ok,that's all!!!.

Jas baby: Can we go out together be4 taking result??...becOz im sure i fail tt bla bla one,so take reslut tat day i comfirm no mood 2 go out or what de la all rit!!!...haha...Dunt too stress liao you gal,otherwise it may would affect our skin and become worse...believe me O!!!!sO cheer Up!!! tK cR! *lOvE yA!!!!

It's stronge how U can go 4 years and years letting other people be responsible 4 the way you think and dress and eat,what you learn,how you speak,and all of suddern you find you've broken away from all tt web of protection and U 're free....

i am so lazy to write anything!...

suppos3 2 meet up xt after work yesterday,but when i called her at 3pm,she said she was eating at home...den we juz deleted de plan lOl...and today called her again,its started raining so no choice just cannt go out and meet her...haiyO,xiaoting,you cheat my feeling la,waste my energy 2 bring clothes 4 changing from here 2 there as well...so heavy leh and so big and ugly it looks when i putted it in bag u dunO!...haha...jkjk,nvm,cOz thanks u save my money so kind...haha.....lOve yA to heart!!!!!...haha.....@ also!...they all sound like scaring i spend my salaries 4 them and ever ask me 2 save myself...hehe...thankz sOoooo much..haha...but what the purpose 2 earn money is??of cOz for using all right,use for friendz,parentz and all peoplez i love....y would i work everyday last 3 weeks?what power 2 push me woke up at 5am everyday??... 我觉得 i still little 2 supply any car or house or water and electricity fee... buy hp or clothes or what no need i pay myslef and wouldn't go 2 spa as well......so i have left enough....sO trust me,i really really really don't mind treat my peoplez i care v much these tiny amount as long as u don't ask Abalone or Shark's fin juz can le .... ....

hehe,hai....explain so hard till as if its fake....hehe.okok,stop here...=]....haha....message me if u'r free,ok??...work hourz is not bad at all...wouldn't feel boring at least!.....haha...ya,that's all..nitz!!

Juz now chatting with Xiaoting in hp,gt alotz laughter,v happy,den suddenly dunO y i had a bad cough,non-stop....a sore throat...cannt talk again for age....i nearly burst into tears all right...doubt if she heard what were i talking abt...then,feel as if the more i want 2 talk,the more gt cough out of control lk a idiot...555555.....hope tml would feel better becasue i have suppused 2 meet up her after work lol...hehe....all the best!!!

today is 23rd of Nov,juz leave 5 days more and you would leave la...isz??haha....all the best 2 yOu!@ tK cR!

dunnO y throat suddenly become aching, and recently my sound lower till unable 2 hear it clearly.... so piss off...x[[....what a useless!...hai...ok la,forget it,it will be recovery itself one day,after all.

Haha.....gt check bank account ytd and found a damn great number inside!!!!!!!....not v far from my expect....oh,i can fly...11days+2 saturday+2 sunday+2 holiday. Promised tt i would work there everyday including holiday,and i did!!!...so its my deserved....haha...proud of myself la....hehe...

OH,everybody,today i no working at home...haha...feel so free so happy at this moment....when O'clock rang,dunt know y juz feel lazy 2 wake myslef up in de early morning again today...so take mc using lol.....hehe....my dad saw me lying there nvr move and said nothing juz help me close my door behind him;after a while,ma come in and sat down beside my bed,smiling,and asked with her hand on my forehead:'feel better ant? its great 2 take a rest all right!... 好 好 休 息 今 天。'....den i feel so touching want 2 giggle 2 them...c me how happiness is!!!!!.....im the most happy child in this world!!!haha.... lOve Ya wOrLD!!!!

Finally bump into Agares in msn....there are long time nvr c him le all right....3 days already le ba??....haha....lame la....ok..j/k....
Nvr sms @ got two days already as well...yOyo,got miss me ma??...haha...it feels as if a thousand years have passed since i last message her. haha...i didn't expect u miss me,but didnt you miss my msg abit once these days??....didn't sms u seems nth 2 do in de morning....haha....want 2 sms u lei....haha...cOz tml i will take this half month pay again...=].....haha....jealous i got pay ba??!!!!!!...haha,,so happy!

today our manager act funny.... whole week we all work rush till tired 2 die...den today when Lijun finally murmured with confused sound:'forget it,don't mind me,i juz want 2 做 死 自 己。'.she suddenly appeared behind us quietly lk a ghost and said:'want die??nO problem a,but all of u have 2 finish ur work 4 me be4 dying all right...work ur flex nOw!!!!!!!'....we paused there,standing, 哭 笑 不 得.......
next thing was someone took a tray of handphone set in hand and nearly 要 跌 倒 了，she saw and run over 2 him so tense at once and....asked:'how's my set? you can fall,bt set cann't,remember,ok?'.....we turned back head immedately seemed nvr heard anything and den joking behind out of control.....haha......it's a laughter between work day.......hehe...

sleepy le....hehe.....good nitz...bB.

Yesterday of yesterday,Xiaoting greeted me at 11.38 in the morning,i'm sure it's 11.38am when she sent me cOz my inbox still got saving her msg...and said GOOD MORNING!!!!...haha....sO happy 2 read it!!!!!..bUt please call her LITTLE PIG!!!..haha...

deaR XT>>>lOvE yA!!!haha.....=]hUgZ....dArLiN,get alotz of stuffz 2 tell u....haha...when ur work off??....lOng tyme nvr c U,miSs yA sO much!!!....
@,Jas and Xiaoting,nxt Tues or Wed i dunt want go 2 work le...tK mc at last....haha...den,three of U want go out and have a fun if u'r free?? wait ur reply. lOvE yA!!

我不害怕 - 梁静茹 - 美丽人生
你有多了解，我的每一天心情，都是怎么交接
夜里回家,容不容易找到车位
我多想知道
在你的世界,什么你会放最前面
不然我只是成全了你的时间
你的时间,我不害怕.
你的爱不够坚强,我能想像我就是你未来认定的家
那无关渴望,那无关爱不爱呀!
我不害怕,幸福到此就融化
如果不能让你看清楚快乐和悲伤
有一股力量,让人等不及分享.我多想知道人与人之间,能走在一起的时间.相信一开始的直觉,就能了解,就能了解.
( 好不容易回家，等到的只是空空的屏幕。没有留意没有简讯，突然觉得好笑，像一个小孩，渴望人的在乎，在每时每刻。childish!!! 我不怕时间一去不会，只怕一事无成，到最后一无所有。)

王菲--红豆
还没好好的感受，雪花绽放的气候。
我们一起颤抖 会更明白，什么是温柔！
还没跟你牵著手 走过荒芜的沙丘
可能从此以后 学会珍惜 天长和地久
有时候 有时候 我会相信一切有尽头。
相聚离开
都有时候 没有什么会永垂不朽
可是我 有时候 宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透 也许你会陪我看细水长流
还没为你把红豆 熬成缠绵的伤口。然后一起分享 会更明白 相思的哀愁
还没好好的感受 醒著亲吻的温柔可能在我左右 你才追求孤独的自由
（注：喜欢王菲就是因为她把歌词的含义诠释的感人肺腑。如果朋友像她这样，那我就可以想像天长地久，不是梦想！曾经何时我以为找到了那个人，可是现在好像又失去了。Y？惶惶忽忽，患得患失。说不累，是假的)

江南 - 林俊杰 - 第二天堂
风到这里就是粘，粘住过客的思念
雨到了这里将成线，缠着我们留恋人世间。
你在身边，就是缘，缘分写在三生石上面。
爱有万分之一甜，宁愿我就葬在这一天。
圈圈园园圈圈。甜甜粘粘甜甜的。
我深深看你的脸，
生气的温柔，埋怨的温柔的脸，不懂爱恨情愁煎熬的我们，都以为相爱就像风云的善变。
相信爱一天抵过永远。在这一刹那，冻结了时间。
不懂怎么表现温柔的我们，还以为殉情，只是古老的传言。
离愁能有多痛痛有多浓
当梦被埋在江南烟雨中
心碎了才懂
嗯~~~耶~~~music...
(决定就是这首歌了。没有理由的理由。就是喜欢它的旋律。)
Jas>>>can leave a comment in your blog??want to tell you sth but there is no place 2 write 4 me....haha.....mIsS yA!!!

today morning really feel like don't wake up from my sweet bed ad can keep sleeping fOr eveR.....but nothing can stop time flying,nothing....when it's 5.30,i juz jumped out of bed as fast as i could,sighing.....有工作就要撑下去，否则once机会失去就再也不会回来了...like what @ said:忍一时风平浪静，退一步海阔天空。 I BEAR!!!! haha!

See doctor again afte work...mum forced me have to...Boring!...den got 3 medicine:Almag,Erazon and Polpocetanol. just write down...for next time easy to buy medicines and no need see doctor first and hear her say,you come again??... nth 2 say leh.gd nitez.

我竟然会吃醋，哈哈，完了！

work as usual....today v peaceful...we all be seperated by our deaR manager...i go back flexing again..with Yoyo together....haha.....LiJun housing;Lily label;JiaLe packing...manager said she doesn't want me go packing or housing..think hard still don't understand y....but i prefer 2 scan hp anyway.actually...it wouldn't hurt my hand,afteR all.....haha... busy from here 2 there in work,and finally forgot what i want 2 forget...haha......................

今天收到玉婷的简讯，很惊喜，好久好久没有她的消息了，换了手机号码后杳无音讯，就在以为再也不会联系的时候，她又出现了！！！。。。事事难料！她说她的生活一言难尽。突然很感触。是啊，一言难尽，有时唯一可以形容自己生活的遭遇的词只有，一言难尽！！！她说上海冬天很冷，现在她快冻僵了。呵呵，好怀念冬天哦！！！以前每次我都会抱住很烧很烧的热水袋不放，卷缩在棉绒被子里赖床，感觉幸福的不可理喻。现在，呵呵，这种感觉再也不会有了。时间，很快呀！。。。真的真的真的很想她。。。深深的思念。

gd nitz....=]

During flexing,chatting with Lily,a new friend made in a new department today...haha.....den 我们不知不觉讲到手机费，她说，很贵，因为她男朋友天天打电话或者传简讯给她，开始她很感动，觉得自己很幸福之类的，可是后来因为觉得麻烦所以一看见他的名字就很想erase.... 我一听到这里就呆住，她看我若有所思，一愣一愣的样子就问我what's wrong with me?as if失恋的感觉....我笑出来，说‘没什么，只是觉得你的男朋友很可怜，哈哈。’。。。然后我跟她说有时我也会天天sms我朋友，连续不断的那一种。。。‘所以如果每个人都像你一样，那我就完了。’。。。她看着我，在一旁想了很久，突然问了我一句话：‘难道你不觉得可能你已经打扰他们的生活了吗？就像我一样。只是他们没有说出来而已。’。。。
‘。。。他们不是你，毕竟。我朋友每次都有回电给我。’
‘他们是你朋友所以会回电，可就是因为要回电所以才开始觉得麻烦啊！’
无言以对。我当时真的不知道该说什么好。因为那不是我可以回答的问题。他们会觉得厌烦吗，我真的不知道。一种无助排山倒海。我一直是这样一意孤行，以为是想念，却其实已经困扰了别人。为什么？？？！！！！我需要时间好好反省自己。唉。

A>>>谢谢你说不会troubled，无论真假，无论谎言还是安慰，我都选择相信。我是真的觉得很感动。哈哈。不过，我不会再一清早传msg打扰你们的睡眠了，哈哈，don't worry.haha.因为我没钱了。哈哈。SwEeT dReAm!! gD nIgHtZ!!!!

early morning K sms me a meassage...really so early sia..its time i juz out of house ad took a bus....actually it was a time she used still sleeping deep i guess.... haha.....sO,feel so touching....我不是被简讯的内容感动，而是她的举动，无论真的有心还是无意，可那种会有人想到你的感觉，真的真的很幸福！！！。。。你知道的。。。as if i can saw tt she woke up from dream and started messaged me ad den went back to sleep again...终于明白其实感动真的不需要理由。。。在乎的人，只要一个动作一句话，even,juz enough.....=]....*touched*..thank U sO mUch，K!!!!!...lOvE yA!!!。。。

Today changed department....so far from my old friend....den during lunch time,i sat with those new one,those teenagers,and ate.....Oh,my gOd...want 2 mad at them,almost....know what?? they talked abt how this or that guy look like all the time!!!....thats OK actually,but later they repeated asking me rite?rite?rite?? 2 make me talk cOz i sat there with closing mouth for age...even though i dunt mind,in fact...and forced me have to respond them,even....i almost wan 2 said not my business,i dunO,etc....but i didn't in de end....felt tat's too rude and im also not going 2 stir up trouble anyway...im timid,indeed....sO juz opened mouth in half way and replied,OK LAH....they turned 2 look each other and started laughing....i felt like go away and looked for elder friendz immediately!!....they would make me feel not boring and cheer up....bt ending i didn't again!!!!...im stupid 2 mAx!!!!!....hate me!!!!!!

There is nothing happen in tthese day....but begin feel shame on myself!!...hai...well, Manager asked me if i wanted do OT yesterday,and den when i started complain how tired im feel,a woman walked over and putted her hand on my shoulder and smiled:'小妹，如果你这样就叫累，那么等你长大你就不用活了。因为除了工作还有一大堆的家务等着你回家去做呢！这就是我们的生活。’ 然后还讲了一些她老公和孩子的事，为了照顾他们，她一下子苍老了很多。看着她的皱纹，突然明白这就是为什么女人比男人更容易变老的原因了－－过度操劳！！！32岁，她只有32岁，却已有42岁的疲惫倦容！！！my gOd! I dOn't want liKe that when im at her age!!!!i definately don't want!!.

有一句话关于女人她说的很幽默，being a woman,要不美丽，要不聪明，如果一样都没有，那干脆死了最好！。。。。我就又想到另一句：同样是经历坎坷，长的漂亮的女人，叫传奇；长的丑的，就叫正常了。what a reality! there is nO fair in de world. 谁不想一生下就是美女，可又有多少人如愿以偿？？

Suddenly shame on myself deep inside...work several hours only,就叫苦连天，要死要活！成合体统？！！！世界上还有太多比我更累的人，对比下我又算什么？一根洋葱都不值！。。。没用没用没用！！！！！。。。

want 2 work everyday....and anyhow no longer say im tired always!!!!...但也要保养！！！！必须！

ok,byebye,go 2 sleep.

Friendz,how s your holiday?? mIsS yA aLl sO!!!!!dUnt sleep too late,its not goOd fOr Ur Health,all right!...=]....88

Tml is holiday. haha...HAPPY Deepavali Day!!!!everyone i love! and next monday is Hari Raya Puasa,a public holiday as well.......wOw....get overtime 2 earn....haha...hehe...wat else can i say??..*sIgh*..actually not very eager in working in holiday!!!!!...but who believe??...original i have had a plan with my family already... but my so 'great' Manager asked me must come and stay by tml as if i am v important 4 running Line... feel touched and wanted as well....but on the other hand,im a human,nt a machine after all...i clear tt i unable to stand throu 12 hours and work nOn-stop,all rite??... haha...hai....manager have stated tt i have to work everyday include holiday and saturday and sunday if i still want this jOb anyhow....Em...is it a threaten??....hehe

kk...i need a sleep..bB.Miss yA every1!!!

今天很放肆。乱生气，又倒了很多垃圾食物进肚子！！！感觉很失落，不敢喝酒，因为喝醉的话，明天上班头会很痛！所以一味只想依赖零食来弥补，遗忘。可是，结果竟然愈来愈糟，整个头都重重的。好怀念学校的日子，一直坐住，只需要听课说话睡觉。那时的天空都是蓝的。单纯。现在从5am出门一直关在厂里等到3点放工，一看见太阳，就恍如隔世。我真的累了！还是读书最好！！！！

A>>>你什么时候出发？？不带手机，那么在厦门可以用电脑吗？回复在xanga.

bB.i gTg....hehe.

Well,yesterday go check my bank,and find my salaries have entered in already!!!....haha...all worries and tired gone at once...
6 days + 1 saturday +2 sunday = $420

nOt bAd,much than what i expected...haha..

对于我的工作和那些人，我不知道该说什么。又来了5个students part-time,16，17岁的年龄，可是对30，40左右的aunt竟然没有一点尊敬！！！问aunt借东西从不放称呼，ABCDE，叫一声，“喂，我要这个东西可以吗？”然后就直接拿走了，好像是她们家里的一条狗一样没名没姓，喂来喂去，先斩后奏，没礼貌，真的不知道她们的教育是读到哪里去了？？连最基本的respect也不懂，i really can't stand it!!!..start dislike them to max!!!...hai...and i know they all also dislike me cOz i ever frown on in front of them when they complain those aunts' speed too fast to follow...y dunt think cOz of their too slow??....and then during lunch time,i sat with 3 aunt a table together...they are v understanding and patient to listen to others talk...always take care of me and teach me what i have to avoid and do properly in work...sometimes i feel they can read my mind and give me some useful advice i nvr think abt before...Oh,i proud of them sO much!!!.....perhaps im suitable fOr them..haha.....im older one..haha...

Something have definately changed around me.either my parents attitude Or my own opionin,even though dunO it change to better or worst,i am happy to find it eailier. i hate past one to Max,after all...still believe there is real friendship and true relationship,bt i will learn 2 love myself mOre nW!!!Stay happy 4eveR!!!!

明天就是发工资的日子，我的第一份工资，没什么太激动，因为怕乐极生悲，空欢喜一场。反正我没有什么必须拥有的东西，比如new handphone,shoes or clothes,我都觉得不需要。无所谓的stuff. nth after all. 所以我决定给我爸妈全部的工资。孝顺他们先比给自己用更有意义。再说，我把工资给父母，他们就会很开心，他们一开心，就会给我钱，然后我给他们的钱就又回来我的口袋了，hahaha....how clever am i!!!!!

I love yOu!!!...=]....hopE 2 bE wiF u 4eVeR!...niTez!!!

start Flexing first today in work..den went to work label till nothing to run already...3 of new one are called to do housing...and den went packing for a while....after lunch...got some1 said line 3 in Label needs ppl to run...so three of us backed to there again....lk some rubbish are thrown by others from here to there....hehe....its lK 整个制作手机的过程我都做过了！。。。haha..not bad...as its a experience lo.

work off...took bus go home and took a bath and den rushed out of hse....when i reached sch,i thought i was late..bt luck A's training havent finish yet... walked here and walked there and looked at sunset 4 a while,its so nice...i felt im nt enough to look it...until duno what time Miss Gou finally end of her conversation and dismissed them..haha...first time know tt Miss Gou v fUnny,kind,friendly and cheerful one..haha....den taught A GO but i dunO hOw to teach...got two more else i dunO setting in front of us,listening....i nvr say dislike,but juz felt unwell,haha,jk,that's true tt there is abit strange la....hehe....sOri....actually i juz want to return ur help u gave me,i owe u toO much already,after all...but tis time its lK i nvr return anything cOz i know you still dunt understand how 2 play rite??...sOri....i know u can feel what i mean behind this pologise de...hehe....thank U sO much anymOre !!!

Checked Friendster ad den saw Xiaoting dropped me a testimonial....beri happy!!!....but den,dunt know y feel lk her sounds unhappy...and said tt im her best friend even though i dont take her as my best friend,even...hehe....doesn't you know me much??then y u still would feel that?...haha...Xiaoting yOu are my dearest and cutiest girlfriend siA!!!!i miSs yA and cherish our friendship so sO sO mUch!! That's true! nO1 would be able to replace u in my heart cOz DEAREST means dearest one lo as same as best means there's one person only rite?... don't understand y got many pPl say tt they have a lot of best friendz around...what on earth got many friends being called 'best one' by ppl at the same time??...i remember i told u guo de.. =p...thick face,haha,If you want and won't mad at me,i swear i will greet yOu a GD MORN in every morning and won't stop!!!!!...haha....its my promise,wan??hahah... leave a comment on my site if you are able to read this,or SMS...ok?haha..pls la! lOve yA!!!!

Oh,my gOd!!!...jUz nOw S called me!...i thought she has forgot what is my blog address le...haha...there is a long slience between us as if we nothing to say,in face coz i wanna cry when she's talking on the phone and its very hard to keep talking when i attempted to stop brust my tears...haha.....U know what i mean de rite?!!!!.....Friendz4eveR

today no tired!!!