Im sick...when i was asked to scanning here packing there nOn-stop,i was sick; when an aunt reminded me don't work too fast otherwise others would be jealous and think me 'hao lian' in order to grab their jobz and den start bully me,i felt sick; 人心难测！ when i realised tt not because im a new one sO i have to work AND run everything ,i was sick!...some1 help me while some1 push me!...what a reality!!!work off at 3 o'clock in de afternoOn...den...when i heard his cold voice in hp,i was sick to death...as if i totally couldnt breathe!....Y everything have to happen at the same time??.....可以不要说话吗？。。。不想说话！不想说话！我不想发音！！！

hai...i surely forgot all of GO rules already!!!..what did my dad say are all different from my memories of GO i known...die le...den my dad laughed me y suddenly got interest to learn GO,i laughed back and said:'just want to test you la!'...while my mum scolded me non-stop wasting time to take a rest or i can choose 2 go learn English as well...i nodded softly without a word as if im v docile 2 agree wif her....and when she went away,i backed my attention to guide at once...haha...well,sometimes wonder 我这样做到底为了什么？？可是过后又觉得想太多很累，所以就算了。。哈哈。。。forget it...反正尽力就好，我不会后悔。haha...

my waist v pain these day...but i don't have courage 2 tell mum it...trying to imagine how i would tell her if she was there,and what she would nag to me about it all...i couldnt imagine it...where on earth do the words come from??...feel its my own business,as if i can heard what she say to i duno how to look after my health after she knew.....

juz come back from hospital...Ma kept her sound around me from there to here...feel i would be mad some time...regretted i told her tt my waist so pain tt cant wake up in e morn...maybe i should say i juz feel tired to lazy waking up!!!......damn.

im tired!

我欲乘风归去，唯恐君楼玉宇，高处不胜寒。

人有悲欢离合，月有阴晴圆缺，此事古难全。但愿人长久，千里共婵娟。

today very unlucky to bump into a selfish women... @#$*%.... She changed from other unknow group...and replaced my friend's position...she said she has working here for 2 years...WHAT an UNBELIEVABLE!!!...to use a shIt woman lk her is the most pOor thing to e company....hu sUch stupid?!!!...wEll,she kept her own batteries on ice didnt use and took away mine ... and den went forwards and told our group leader tat i left working place when i was looking 4 them!!!!!!...What a shiT!!!....after leader scolded me and left,she walked forwards me and passed to me my batteries,smiling:'Oh,sOri,i think it's a mistake tt i take wrong one le.they're urs??'....!!!!!!.....在心里骂了她一遍又一遍，den i smiled back and shooked head:'no,not mine.i go and take new 1 now.'...留下她一个人在原地惊讶。。。谁会要再拿被她这种人碰过的东西？？nEveR！！！！！。。。.my first job,my first time be scolded by leader in working in my life...我一定会报复的！！！！！。。。下一次我要扔掉她的batteries!!!!

These day i seem lk start changing to impatient....very easy to lost my temple at working..always feel depressed and helpless at times....hate me!!!!...im tired.
在工作中认识很多朋友，they're fine ppl,understanding and caring,industrious and generous to a falut....above 20 yrs old at least... feel v comfortable with them....bt wouldn't take a touch as same as before...somethings have happened and left and den died...so i won't believe friendship anymore....em...hehe...ya...i never feel down or sad or what....天下无不散的宴席。。。活着，一笑而过，就好。
hehe....remember a phr:
雪中送炭，惜在真送炭。
祝福只是一份难得的心意。
虚无缥缈。
心意贵，贵在朋友急需的不是真炭的时候。
izzt really cOrrect???.....im tired.

当我们十年后再重逢，心中任是温暖，就是好朋友。不要忘记当年曾经深深爱过你的我，朋友。 暮然回首，才惊觉有些人，有些事，失去了就再也不可能回头了，所谓?覆水难收大概就是如此了。不珍惜当初所拥有的一切，使我失去了太多的感受和经验以及所有的我所爱的朋友。
在开口闭口间，我选择了沉默。以为可以挽回，殊不知这个世界永远人海茫茫。毕竟。终于明白，谁少了谁不可以活？？可是从此，后悔的感觉排山倒海。淹没我，翻覆过去。

went home from work...eyelids r so heavy to lock themselves....actuall today my work r too busy that there's no time to feel tired...feel sleEpy onli...wOke Up at 5pm....it's earlier than when im in school day,even...hehe...one thing only i glad was A called me in last min be4 3pm and made me awake a bit...when i walked out of company and saw Missed call showed in hp,cannt express how did i feel at tt time...haha...Surprised and touched ba...den...today is Sunday,today's salary is count regarding as overtime,tml still have to wake up early,tml nth to do...ya,tml i must to look for some comics and bOoks from bkshOp at pArkway there...there got alot of my fav bks...ok,tt's all le....sleepy.

bB.....nItEz.

Hihi....i finally come back my blog again le.....haha....these two days seemed getting so long and so slow tt as if it has 2 weeks past...hehe...miSs me ba?!!!...haha....i miSs all of you yA sOoooo much when im taking a rest!!!...haha.These day never online...found a job in Ang Mo Kio...find im stupid enough tat look for a job so far from my home...there are 1 hour distance between AMK and UBI alright??....hehe...speechless...hai...its abt a scan handphone job...there's nO chair to sit for us SO i stand working whole day....whole 8 hours can?!!!....OH my MAMA...haha....bt if give me a choice, i absolutely wont choose 2 work as fast food or what...BECAUSE those jobs r too tired no freedom as well and...I wouldn't face ppl ad talk to them in ENG!!haha...NOT BAD!!!.haha,anyway i bumped into nursia in there woking also today...today is her first day ba if im not wrong..haha...same company leh...haha.....sO coincidence hOR!HapPy.=]

Supposed to meet Jas and Xue...but it start raining...till now still havnt stop,even....den jas said tt i am always lk tat,nt on one....hehe...seems very angry hOr...im pologise here to U in public,jas and xue...sorry....as the matter of fact,its cant be controlled by me de alright??...hU crazy enough 2 go outdoor and have fun in a raining day,expecially shopping....which one is better,stay at home OR walk around under the rain??....Even though we have finished discussing on today,anything will be might change all of a sudden,so we have to learn when is a suitable time to change our plan lo....tat is what called ‘随机应变’。(dunO how to translate in english lA)....it's lk when everything around me got changed,den i have to change and accept them as well...=p...haha....rite??...haha

feel lonely as if no1 knows me in this world...hp in slience all day...alOne,alOne,alOne....wUu555......kK...stOp childish here...haha...woke up by my nainai rather early as usual...around 6.00am...walked to EunOs MRT 2 sell ticket....u know hows my english Oral delo....sO all i can reveal r embrass and tired!!!!..den back home,my deaR father gave me a number to interview....when lunch in half way,i immediately rushed out of home cOz i thought i was late...bt after reached Ang mo Kio and started found i made a huge mistake...hehe....i reached there earlier around 1 hour.....haha....everyone walk here walk there and saw me as if never saw...lk tat every1 ignor me....first time realised tat earning money is a not easy thing....haha.....haha....hAi~~~hai~~~

如果一个人在乎另一个人，那无论多困难的事，都会心甘情愿去做的。
如果一个人想念另一个人，那无论多遥远的距离，都是会找的到的。
我试了，发现，这是真的！！！无论友情还是爱情，都是一样的。可是，这个世界感情的事是永远不会平等的。先付出的人永远会觉得患得患失。所以先说‘我爱你’的人总是最痛苦。可是我总是笨到要死，永远是那个按捺不住先说‘喜欢’的人。就像白痴一样，无奈。不过，hehe...我还是觉得主动一点比较好，毕竟当自己知道自己在做什么的时候，会比较安心和脚踏实地吧。

Yesterday went to Jas's chalet...we spent a very happy moment there...hehe...den her sister asked her stay back and Jas ending finally agreed 2 overnight but i didn't want 2....conclution,Jas called her parents come her chalet and sent me back....haha...

Jas>>>haha...darling,i lOve yA... feel so touched after reciving ur message ytd night when i reached home... i just can FEEL what u mean behind each and every word u wrote. so yeah, i know what u mean and they're all truth...=]..*<.MuAcKs>*...HAHA...thank U sO much...dunt thank me 4 everything,cOz u r my gd friend,i cannt accept 2 leave u alone...kK
are you afraid of being alone?
cause i am,
im lost without you...=]....lOvE yA dEePlY!!!!!

A>>>thanks,tOo.

Pulled up by my mUm in the early morning...around 4.30am...sky at that time still was a full of black space,covered in cloud....air very fresh...haha...-_-'''...dunO how 2 describ...pOoR vocabulary... den we took 22 to 四马 Road 4 praying...stayed there till 9.00...went home...finished brkfast and asked mother if i would be allowed to outdoOr...hai...she disagreed of cOz...den i ignored her again of cOz ...bad child...-_-'''...out of home to take 51 meeting up Cindi in Geylang West CC...Cindi changed more pretty since last time we met up....it's been almost half yr already...both of us seemed very happy to joke each other like used to....but actually can feel there really were some v strange things between us....i know sO does she...suddenly become as if there are two different worlds between us...why?...who got change??....no hope to repeat 'dunt go changing,i love U juz the way U r!'...coz no1 would listen to me de...hai...sOri,i'm too selfish...hehe....sOri...i swear i would NOT repeat anymore.

WOW!!!...Jasline's birthday will come sOon!!!...but tOmOrrOw is hOliday...haha...sO luck tml is holiday....haha...thanks sO much u helpPing me save $$$...haha....sO happy....nO present...haha...congulation...haha....Oh,laugh too hard that feel tired a bit nw...hehe...nO lah,i brought of cOz...my goOd friend,my deaR lei...no reason come to meet U with two empty hands de alright!!!...haha....grew older lOl!!!!!!

嗟来之食，总是没有好事！！！

上次K请客，一直耿耿于怀，好像欠了她很多一样。要请回，可是她不知为何一直推托我，用尽各种理由不是吃饱了就是直接拒绝不去。K不去，我就没有再提请客的事，可是J 竟然一直酸我broke promise。Siao...有苦难言！some stuff like treasure不可以逼迫force，更不可能要我跪下来求她去吃一顿我付钱的饭。我又不追她。。。den反正就是她从没有一次接受我的请客的。理由嘛，就是怕我没钱。是啊，我家是很穷，穷到没钱买过一栋私人住宅！！！

spend these days to read <三国演义> again....feel lk i can understand further more...樊稠，李爵，郭犯的将军，因为帮助敌方的韩遂逃脱，而被他的主帅请去吃饭，然后就当场被乱刀砍死。。。

所以说，设宴款待，多数都有自己的目的。被请的人，不得不防！

start Miss friends le!!...hehe....lOVe yA!....kaR,you are bloody!!!

Lonely n 4gotten

U were there to comfort me..Every minute...every moment

u were there with me...

U were the best... a guy could ever have...

U cheered me up...turned my frown upside down...

Wanna let u know how great u are...

for just being who u are...making people happy...and not at all sappy...

Thks 4 all the care u've shown...

for all tat u've shared...

I LOVE YOU!!!

Even though i make a mistake now

i would not regret this fact in the futurn

A--->......let me see a while,what a suitable word can i say 2 yA?...hehe,well,thanks so much tt u said tt i am not 1 of 7 of them....but conclusion,what number i am??...NO. 8?...my class register number is 9...8 is belong to K de.....=p....den what is e difference between them and me??....hehe....watever i find,there is no main different ma....7 ge tai duo bu que wo yi ge....=p....hehe...how u know i am not 1 of them... you know how important these words 4 me?!....haha....clever la U anyway...know i reading,so dunt want 2 hurt me rit?....=]...thank you alot....sUan le,hehe....psycho...maybe i am right maybe not....but i won't regret anything what i siad,nvRat least till now....haha....tat's me...love yA...

竟然忘记以前的日子是怎么熬过来的。。。一想到以前，就不寒而瑟。。。突然觉得如果就算让我再活一次，回到过去，我也不要！！绝对！。。。昨天还跟XL说如果时间可以回去，我一定愿意从头开始活。。。没想到，只是1天，什么都变了，只剩下疲倦的无力感。。。好像再也没有回首往事的权利了。。。我前途茫茫。。。无奈。

hihi....today surely is my last day of secondary school le...before POA N exam to be end soon,i began feel despress all of a sudden....am i too childish??.... oringinal i was going to give @ a big hug, den when we walked out of hall,saw her was talking with Jr....of cOz no way to disrupt them,so i turn to talk with Jas and xt they all....unlucky,when i turned back again,she disappeared already....-_-'''.....without a 'see U'....hai....hehe...maybe its possible that she also turned head to look for me a while,and the problem is i didn't observe....haha....daydream a??....hehe....the more i think of e laughter we shared and the more i feel piss off....saying,天下没有不散的宴席。。。i understand this opinion,but i cant accept it....hehe...useless.

刚刚到家，10点多了，唉，累的不想再说话。突然闪过一个念头，决定记下来以免明早忘记。。。此类情况时有发生，不算奇怪。所以前车之鉴，不可忽视。

真的觉得他越来越像一个孩子。。。一个只会为了自己着想的孩子。。。虽然不会哭也不会无理取闹，但就是不像一个男人。。。没有安全感，不说保证，不习惯感动，不喜欢表达，更吝啬的不肯甜言蜜语。。。像足古代的男人一样木纳。。。只会偶尔关心他自己的家人，从不肯公开提及一下朋友，问候关心一下他们。。。总是提醒一句才会明白一句，可是俗话说，教出来的东西是臭的。就是如此了。。。大男人主义，永远不肯放下一点尊严多问一声。。。和一个孩子相处很累很累。。。说他是君子又缺很多，说是男孩却已经长大，说男人又真的明明差一截。。。男孩的单纯固执他有了，可是男人的细心沉稳温柔他一样都没有。。。要他温柔体贴？。。。叫他去跳楼还比较快！！！

我说的是谁？。。。PLS lOh，都这么清楚了还敢问？当然是你啦，我亲爱的表哥大人！。。。拜托你温柔一点啦，这么大男人，难怪奕奕她会和你分手。。。哈哈。。。＝p....最后一句，男人先说sorry,不会死的啦！！！。。。切记。BB。保重。i love ya.=D

知己零落，实属常事，不应太过伤感。可是这几天总觉得自己一直在自暴自弃，时间快的让人措手不及。想到离别，就好像又是一个世纪要过去了。无奈。今天的朋友明天就是陌路人。又是一场梦。没有勇气去想象未来。想起一句话：
‘纵有千古， 横有八方，前途似海，来日方长。’
是啊，前途似海，来日方长。

以前的日子，刚到新，不觉新鲜，只想留意身旁的人怎么做怎么说，照着样子画葫芦，学他们的一举一动。一切从头开始，坦白说，有点累。不想说话，总觉的每个人都在嘲笑。其实后来才发现那时不说话也很好，不与人接触就没有so-call是非，自由自在。有人问我话，我不是摇头就是点头，很轻松，一幅理所当然的样子，反正拿‘我听不懂’当借口，你管我？？

先是认识Denise,那段省略，不提。说来话长。哈哈。。。然后碰上@和Jas.....第一次跟她们去canteen，一边看着她们两个人说的滔滔不绝，一边静静地学着她们的发音和英语，一语不发。突然Jas笑笑问我为什么不说话，我如实说，我在学你们说话。K不解地说：‘为什么要学？我们不介意你。’我一笑置之，不喜欢多作解释，觉得麻烦而且那个时候也不很了解她们，实则不知道该怎么解释。最简单的一个理由就是，入乡随俗。

再认识xiaoting,xueting,meichen，是我史料未及的。很奇怪的感觉，以前一个人的日子突然变成有了有一大群的人在身边，嘻笑，不习惯先，自卑感在后。哈哈。。。不知道Mc你还记得一件事吗？有一次我们6个人上楼，因为我走第一个，所以先看见楼梯的铁门是关住的。于是我就突然转身，一句话也没有说也没有表情，只是用手很用力地推你们离开。@走过去看，说：‘喔，门关住。转身，我们走另外一边上去。’那时Mc的表情最深刻，很可爱，一种不思其解又像很奇怪的看住我。哈哈。。。可能她很奇怪为什么我不说话告诉她们门关住，而只是默默地推她们。。。现在想来是因为那个时候不爱说话吧。因为她的表情，不知道为什么，我突然觉得我必须开口说话了。无论有没有人笑。

during March,there were many things happen...i was desperating 2 learn english sO that i can communicating with him well....den at that time,thank to him,my english suddenly improve rapidly....at the same time,thank to myself,my Chinese result dropped down so fast till i can go to hell travelling a while....Conclusion,nth lo....den feel very stupid,so decide contiue learning my english...next...forgot le

ok,den i found my life changed...my attitude started change...i become dare to be happy...make myself happy and find as long as my friends stay happy,i would feel happier...Really,really cherish my friendship bewteen them....ya,A surely is a good man,indeed!...beyong words...haha....i love you so much!!!darling....MuAcK*=D.....but anyway i know you wouldn't mind de....hehe....seldom say 'take care' 2 me....two words only also lazy to say say....haiyO...blOody la...haha....jk....

As if too long le,rite?....hehe.....okok...88....take care,my friends!!!....end of paper.

lalala....N finish soon...Monday is our last paper---POA....i got confidence on this subject....cOz someone said not very difficult ,actually....that particular one is who?? Jr of cOz la....Em...give you my three line...-_-'''....my gOd....hehe....he always like that..ci guan jiu hao...lk today when Math paper ended,he immediately said:'quite easy right??haiyO,i want to cry liao,waste my time,hai'....faint...haha...funny lO...真想好好扁他一顿....haha...hai,later K's heart break into piece,as my hand pain...haha...so,suan le,suan le....hehe...jk... Well,dunno where will i place next year....if i leave sec and go to ITE,miss me,can??...but duno cry too hard hOr,coz i no money to buy tiuss for U....ok?...haha....okok...gone...take care..lOvE yA.

darling,i said no longer got chance to call you darling again le....see,how clever am i!!!.....today is last day...there is really no chance face to face say le....*sigh*...=p.....sO sad...want to cry....em,cry for you la,no chance to hear....=p....haha..jk....and,nO more le...take care of urself!!!!...happy holiday!!!

Finally decide that i am not going to delete this blog....i won't...NeVeR... although i never spend too much time to design its skin,i need it and love so much throughout.... after all it has existed too much emotion inside.. ..they are too much to forget in ease...yes,.i am no courage to forget everything........it belongs to me but not who else,after all...if i don't cherish it who would cherish for??....and,i decide go back my own language,which no1 can understand enough.....haha....fan zheng ye mei you ren hui zai hu......=]..that's all.

Halo,i help all of you improving your 'great' mother tongue,ok?......so,start thank me gratefully ba!!!...see me so understanding!!..touched ba??.....haha....sOsO la......;>....gd luck!

tingting (not xiaoting)....haha...竟然一早CALL ME。。。听她闷闷地诉说她的生活时，我突然觉得自己是多么幸运。。。除了小时候爸妈很少在身边，我什么都过的很好。有时觉得孤独，但我还有爷爷奶奶的照顾，爸妈每月送钱，我就从小到大衣食无忧，锦衣丰实。从来没有挫折永远好像不食人间疾苦的样子，不很明白快乐因为没经历过痛苦。以前矮矮的，所以每个人朋友或者长辈都喜欢摸我的头一下，温柔地说：你很幸福，有个这么好的家。。。我笑笑口中说谢谢，心里就想，好什么好？爸爸妈妈都不在，有什么好？？。。。现在长大了，突然明白了很多，其实，真的，我很幸福，我是一直活在象牙塔中的人。

tingting在PUB 的工作不顺利，这是意料中的事。这种风月场所，她怎么会快乐？？。。。我不知道该说什么，拿着电话停了很久，最后我才吐出一句：玉婷，不要做了。辞掉这个工作。
她笑：‘你说的容易，你明白什么？大小姐，辞掉工作我喝西北风啊？’
‘酒店也可以’
‘PUB 好赚。一个月最多3500哦！’
‘那有什么用？现在的你不快乐。’
‘呵呵，快乐值多少钱？你的日子活的太幸福了。’
‘。。。。。。’我无言。
常言女孩进了社会都会变，现在我相信了。钱不是万能的，但没钱是万万不能的。

我的运气很好，生在一个什么都有的环境中，而她们，出淤泥染了一身的泥，最后坠入风尘。如果将我也生在她们的处境中，可以想象我不及她们的一半！！

dunt want posting this blog in english again... it cannot make me express what i feel in correctly......and on the other hand,when K said tt she seldom read blog,i felt sth deep inside all of a sudden start losting. ...tat feeling,beyong express....suddenly this blog seemed become empty and meaningless for me at that time.....now recall still feel worthless as same as before.

consider if should I delete it??....Maybe ba.

N level of english over today.....i have done my very best...but realize tt language is not a subject which can pass over one overnight ...i unable to help it if i never through once....exam hour for me is juz enough....no extra time to check...my hand writting were written in paper can fly le i think... very Luan......wonder if markers can got understand a not......

A-->have to state that i confirm failing eng le.....ask so many,den still got fail....hehe...i faint.. pologise 1st...so when you receive ur hp bill,dunt send to me hOr!!!cOz i aso wish to pass de ma.....sori..haiyO...waste your time to teach and waste my time to learn as well.....haha...hai...heart aching....sUan le.....my gratitude more than i can say....haha....sOri,thanks so...haha..lOve ya...hapPy4eveR