..........really really piss off..........

wait till sO long,bt in the end i don't knOw anything instead still waiting fOr others told me...

fOrg3t it

弦歌寄意主持人收，P.O.BOX 933, SINGAPORE 912899

人性是腐烂的。而我，却是连那些腐烂的心的人也看不起的人。shame on being a human being. 觉得我的心真的已经冷了， 对 于 人，心 灰 意 冷。。。以前小孩子之间的吵闹然后口无遮拦的出口伤人，可以美其名曰：童言无稽。因为孩子还小，不懂事。然后孩子上了学，有了知识与文盲不再挂钩时，还是常常乐于在别人背后'暗箭伤人’，谈吐粗俗，出卖朋友，不懂敬老尊贤，何故？？古曰：人之初，性本善。所以也罢，就暂视为'家教不严’，全是父母的错好了。可能因为学校里的学生还没有长大，心智还没有成熟，不懂得谦让和包容。。。
于是等等等，现在，我终于出社会了，以为成人之间一定可以得到应有的尊敬和礼貌，因为所谓的成人代表已经经历沧桑，思想成熟什么世事都看通了的人，不会大惊小怪，不再三姑六婆， 道人是非。。。结果。。 竟更是变本加厉！。。。 说什么人长大就会懂事，全是屁话。自私自利，舍人利己，什么教养也没有，完全是一群猪狗不如的畜生！猪狗还真是可怜，莫名其妙被拿来跟人作比较。
有能力的被人妒忌，有实力的被拿来比较，永远不会想自己有没有错！！！人前不敢说话，永远只会在背后磨牙咧齿诅咒人。 小人！！！ 所 以。。。。
树大招风，
人红招妒。
人与人自相残杀，做人做到这种程度，真的是很失败。看到他们，我好像看到年老的自己，从孩子 到学生，从学生到职员，懂事不懂事懂事不懂事，恶性循环。活了一辈子，恨了一辈子，到最后还是回到了原点像一个不懂事的孩子一样永远童言无稽。我真的很累去做一个人。

什 么 是 权 威？？ 我 迷 惑。

今天JC良心发现，把我调去别的office 做事,paper work something..一开始以为她哪有这么好所以我说不定又要受苦了，可最后知道我和另外3个新调去的竟然是最幸运的人。因为听说我原来label 的朋友被Supervisor骂到很惨不忍睹。。。而我们4个万幸逃过一截！！！ OH,my god,too happy 2 believe tt all of us were just sitting in office,no standing,chatting and making jokez whole day no ppl asked us 2 work anything!!!.....WoW!!!!so wonderful!!!!.... 一天只要坐在一起摆美聊天就可以赚到＄40。。。。hahahaha!!!!!。。。

And,今天和我一起的3ppl, 2个本来就是朋友，另一个就是ah-lian with a head of gold one....starting i sat away alone lk a id***,den forgot when we juz started chatting and gt a long conversation till over...... 记得好像是起源于我问Jasmine一句：‘ 你是怎么保养皮肤啊？？’。。。。=p.......even though Jasmine looks lk more Ah-lian than A-mei,i like Jasmine better cOz her character actually not bad,as if v fierce at times but inside dame friendly one...i felt la.... den we sat together during lunch time...after tt,2 of them went 2 outside smoking,A-mei's friend and me just standed beside and accompanied them...but lata i really cannt stand it anymore and told Jasmine i go first coz i feel sensitive 4 smoke at timez...unexpectedly,she asked me wait a while and THEN putted out fire on her hand immediately!!!!!!!!!!!!!.....feel a bit extremely flattered and sorry as well!!..... 受 宠 若 惊。。。。。 my gOd....*wink*

my department,Label, is under JC....the most mean Fuk i eveR seen!!!!!....whateveR mistakez she made is big or small,she must would push far away as fast as possible,or shift the blame to somebody else!!!!!!.... 卑鄙！！！十足的小人一个！！缩头乌龟！！！！ Today so shUcksssss..... Y i must still stay back in this company???....paid $6 to office thanks 2 her!!!!!!.... 推 卸 责 任，being一个管工就可以自以为是？争锋夺利，欺善怕恶，唯命是从的对上司像一只哈巴狗一样摇尾巴。。。is a leader always like that in social??..NO!!I DON'T BELIEVE! I CANNT ACCEPT!。。。what is power?what is leadership??how to be a perfect leader that every worker under her would feel safe and respect her from the bottom of heart????????!!!.....tell me!!!!shOw me....

Ayh...anyway find there is a msg thing going around today,it said abt today is World's Best Friend,asking me 2 send it 2 eight friendz,my best friendz 1... den i start thinking of friendz....den i replied Denise tt does best friend mean there is 1 only in someone's heart...she laughed and agreed with me.....hehe....den tt's why i forward it and sent 2 one ppl only.haha.....

yesterday felt cold 2 core...so today i wear double 2 work,but in the end 全身还是都一直在发抖，不知道为什么。。。maybe tt air-con turn lower 2 max coz know i have weared double.... bu hao xiao....hai...my god....i would become ice-cream soOn if everyday lk that 啦!!!!!!!

i am happy!! really happy!!! Everything will be okay soOn i know.something missing,something gt gain,and finally i straighten out my mind..... Silly!!!!....Old enough but still believe some stupid thingz...hai....hehe......i will be fine...i have become fine already!...ya......

went out with xiaoting after work..reached home saw xt left me a msg abt our meet changed 2 5pm...so gt enough time 2 take a rest on my bed...so lazy sia.....haha....den gt alot of laughter on our way...very happy....butde most upsetest thing was she said she has ate with Meili before already so no matter what i begged she just keeped refusing 2 eat a romatic meal with me....haha....den no idea i just brought something else 4 her bring home....even though she said she liked them so much,(haha,nO lah...)dunO its true ant...haha.....xiaoting,whenever u eat finish them,pls remember you have a v gd ad sweet friend lk me,ok?love me,ok??...haha......we walked around till 7pm.brought O'lay Total Effects,$22.50, and a box of Redoxon with 30 tablests,$13.5...... 零 零 碎 碎 加 起 来，1.5+10.5+2.4+13.5+22.5+2=52.4 onli...juz 2 days 2 hours plus half....nO wonder can keep so relax...spend pay is one of way 2 feel relax at times....=]

gt pay list of this half month today. feel nothing already. who believe im the second higher one among those friendz!!!.THE HIGHEST ONE is Suhua,$792!!!! she definately is a really crazy gal,we really don't know what word can decribe her already!everyday notice she looks sick and feel her hands so cold when she touched me awhile one time,ad said feeling unwell is her self but next day still gt see her come working!!!! haiz...hehe....dunnO sO hard 4 what?!!!!!......still young one and a student..... -_-'''...Then my daddy seemed v glad tt i havnt quit job yet,while ma asked me dunt be 22 crazy one. afterwards when i told her tt how much Suhua's salaries tk,she juz no wordz out anymore. hehe. everytime i took $ out of bank give parentz,everytime i would feel relax a bit and reduce a sense of sorry for them!!!!......

suppose 2 meet xt go eat tml.cannt wait!!!...=].....!!!!!!!! hUgzZZZZZZ

going 2 sleep liao.today work so tired! haha.c ya. gd nightz!!!!

dunnO y my comment from Ka cannt show in de blog.......qi si le la.....

Ka: 。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。i speechless!...okok,i have become v pOor these days cOz i have spent finish my all salaries already,sO i,needless to say,am too destitute 2 return ur meal all right.....unable 2 treat le,as u want le ba................ya,haha,even though u start hate me 4 breaking my promise also no use already!!!!....u take caRe,tOo!....haha..=]

come back!!..*i really miss those days i loved u sO.*

上班的时候突然回忆起很多往事，好像电影倒带再重播一样。我除了说时间已经一去不复返了，还可以说什么呢？？那些日子呀，真的似梦境一样太幸福了！！！为什么我竟没有好好珍惜 它？？？？？？？分开的朋友现在真的再也杳无音讯。人海茫茫！！正如KA一个MSG所说的，friendz are like balloons,Once you let them go,You can never bring them back.....
张 莉 莉，整整4年的小学朋友， 曾经是如漆如胶的我们，现在竟已像两个世界的人一样 ，各占天涯一方，从此自扫门前雪。已经6年没有见面 ！！！！6 年 了！！！！！
李 平和卢 啸 峰就不提了，朋友以上关系的朋友，伤心过的人，时间再长也是昙花一现。
李 晓 凤， 后 钰 婷， 许 庆 菲。 我 最 好 的 朋 友， 当 时。
现在终于相信时间有时真的可以淡忘很多回忆。甚至可以让另一个人取代模糊的位子。现在我所有的记忆竟已经全是现在的朋友 的时光！ 无论快乐还是悲伤。呵呵，一直在回忆和KA and XT同桌的日子。哈 哈。。。真的很幸福呀！即使是静静额坐在她们身边听她们说话也会感觉自己很快乐。我一直会听KA所说的每一句话，有时即使正在和XT or JAS说话，as long as她 在我旁边开口，我就会条件反射的停下所有动作听她说什么。 为此XT还对我生气了很久很久，can feel差点就要和我绝交了。。。 哈哈。。。幸好幸好她大人不计小人过，忘记了。哈哈。。＝p。。。不过，从此以后真的第一次知道我自己竟然会在乎一个人到这种程度。。。。。。。。 在想，如果真的每个人都可以被代替，那么难道我真的会有一天忘记她们，就像张莉莉一样吗，就像KA所说的？？？我 不 要！！！再一个6年我就老了，真的老了! 唉。。。 呵呵呵。。。哈哈。。。as if i think too much,maybe.

Ka: i won't spend my salaries too much...haha....im sure i would save some enough 2 treat u de....haha....jkjk.... thanks soooo much ur caring,darling!!!!!!! ^*LoVe yA*....i really can understand what u mean behind each words u reminded...^^,.....*hUgZzzzzzz ya+..howeveR i cant break my promise myself...hehe... by de way,when u gt free??

these day feel v unwell...dunO y....juz feel from inside....work ok,my family fine,everything is ok as usual...bt i juz still feel sick,den when i unable 2 find reason,it make me sick more....during my work time in de morn around 10am,my heart beatED heavily all of a sudden....v pain 2 make me breath 2 normal.......doubt if there is something wrong with my ppl or friendz??............i don't know...sO all i can say is TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF!!!!!!MUST.